junkygustahater
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Just gunna talk about what happened
So, be in Geography class for new semester
Cutest girl possible (In my opinion) sits at the table group, I didn't know anybody there. Get to know her, add her on facebook. She turns out be fan flipping tastic. Begin to fall for her. Eventually ask her out. (would have been one month anniversary tomorrow) Things are going great although I was never able to take her out from her not wanting to/being broke. Anyways, from about last week tuesday (It feels like years I loved her at this point). She was being a little distant, not wanting to hold hands and what not, I looked into it, and came up with numerous reasons in my head, I thought I was doing something wrong, the next day, I don't even see her except at Geography and shes quiet. Thursday, again nothing, almost nothing in Geography. I was up til 5 pondering what I was doing wrong, my bud also happened to be crazy over her, he didn't want me to lose her, so he gave me some cash, bought her chocolate and a rose. (I got her roses whenever I had cash) Found her alone, gave it to her. And yeah. She was a bit warmer towards me. On the weekend my friends wanted to hang. I said no because I was going to take her out. She declined. I was home all weekend. Monday, all she talks about is looking for a close friend of hers (who hates me and from my conclusion, helped her with the breakup speech). And after Geography, walking her to her bus, she says she doesn't want to be with me anymore, gives me a hug, I'm trying not to cry, I ask her if we can still be friends (I didn't care TOO much because I loved her and contact was what mattered) she said yeah. I go home. I screencap the facebook screen where it says shes in a relationship w/ me and save it, then go single. I'm fine, then the clock struck 8, I cried, balled, unable to barely see until 11. My friend messaged her about it raging, she didn't really care. And then, it was awkward on Tuesday in Geography. We didn't talk. That night, I told her I loved her. And that I wanted her to be happy etc etc and asked if she just wanted not to interact again. She said no, and that we'd be friends and stuff. I tell her I'd always be there if she ever needed anything. The next day, we don't talk much, I just watched her. Talk to her again about stuff. I left out a lot. My friends all told me it was unhealthy, that she didn't care about me, etc. And I realize that's true. But I can't stop being good to her. And yeah, that's about it. Tomorrow would have been our one month and what not, theres a lot more to it than this, but this is all I can really say. Out of just having mega feels over thinking about this again. I kinda realize that she didn't really care about me/my needs and what not. I still love her. But I still can't get over her. She says she'll keep me in mind when shes ready to date again. But that's probably a load. Wat do.
So, be in Geography class for new semester
Cutest girl possible (In my opinion) sits at the table group, I didn't know anybody there. Get to know her, add her on facebook. She turns out be fan flipping tastic. Begin to fall for her. Eventually ask her out. (would have been one month anniversary tomorrow) Things are going great although I was never able to take her out from her not wanting to/being broke. Anyways, from about last week tuesday (It feels like years I loved her at this point). She was being a little distant, not wanting to hold hands and what not, I looked into it, and came up with numerous reasons in my head, I thought I was doing something wrong, the next day, I don't even see her except at Geography and shes quiet. Thursday, again nothing, almost nothing in Geography. I was up til 5 pondering what I was doing wrong, my bud also happened to be crazy over her, he didn't want me to lose her, so he gave me some cash, bought her chocolate and a rose. (I got her roses whenever I had cash) Found her alone, gave it to her. And yeah. She was a bit warmer towards me. On the weekend my friends wanted to hang. I said no because I was going to take her out. She declined. I was home all weekend. Monday, all she talks about is looking for a close friend of hers (who hates me and from my conclusion, helped her with the breakup speech). And after Geography, walking her to her bus, she says she doesn't want to be with me anymore, gives me a hug, I'm trying not to cry, I ask her if we can still be friends (I didn't care TOO much because I loved her and contact was what mattered) she said yeah. I go home. I screencap the facebook screen where it says shes in a relationship w/ me and save it, then go single. I'm fine, then the clock struck 8, I cried, balled, unable to barely see until 11. My friend messaged her about it raging, she didn't really care. And then, it was awkward on Tuesday in Geography. We didn't talk. That night, I told her I loved her. And that I wanted her to be happy etc etc and asked if she just wanted not to interact again. She said no, and that we'd be friends and stuff. I tell her I'd always be there if she ever needed anything. The next day, we don't talk much, I just watched her. Talk to her again about stuff. I left out a lot. My friends all told me it was unhealthy, that she didn't care about me, etc. And I realize that's true. But I can't stop being good to her. And yeah, that's about it. Tomorrow would have been our one month and what not, theres a lot more to it than this, but this is all I can really say. Out of just having mega feels over thinking about this again. I kinda realize that she didn't really care about me/my needs and what not. I still love her. But I still can't get over her. She says she'll keep me in mind when shes ready to date again. But that's probably a load. Wat do.
