theglasscell
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So I met this girl on Okcupid who seemed really cool. She is into all the same bands as me and was really easy to talk to, at least online and in text.
She texted me on Friday to see if I'd want to hang out on Saturday.
I made plans with her to go to play pool in the city.
Then in the morning after I got off work I started getting crazy anxious about it, not just meeting her but going downtown where it's crazy crowded on Saturdays and just the whole thing. I felt so anxious and shy I just told her that straight out, I texted her and cancelled the date. I was honest about my reasons.
She seemed fine with it and didn't get angry.
My real issue is that I would like to date someone, but I have lost all confidence in myself, and have started to be scared to go on these blind dates. I've had a lot turn out bad in the past so I get scared it will be another bad experience that I don't need.
But I know you have to take risks and risk getting rejected to find someone you connect with.
I just had having this crippling shyness and anxiety, it's only when I'm alone too. Like I was out with my friends last night and it never even occurs to me to be shy but when I'm alone I feel terrified.
I almost feel like I need to hire a guy just to walk around with me so I can do normal chores like grocery shopping without being too scared to leave my house.
If it's something like going to work I have no problem though. I sometimes wonder if it's because I've been on the night shift so many years.
Going out early in the day or in sunlight seems to terrify me, but leaving my apartment at 1am is totally not an issue.
I am just confused, I hate feeling crippled by shyness, and how random it is.
I mean I speak in front of large groups of people on a weekly basis, telling really personal stories about myself, like really humiliating things, and I don't feel shy at all.
People will often say they are amazed by my confidence, so why it just going to the store across the street or my building's laundry room overwhelms me with fear?
It's just the fact that it seems to fluctuate so much, I can't figure out what causes it to come on so suddenly almost like an attack of fear and shyness and then other days I am the opposite where I feel so comfortable I can do anything.
She texted me on Friday to see if I'd want to hang out on Saturday.
I made plans with her to go to play pool in the city.
Then in the morning after I got off work I started getting crazy anxious about it, not just meeting her but going downtown where it's crazy crowded on Saturdays and just the whole thing. I felt so anxious and shy I just told her that straight out, I texted her and cancelled the date. I was honest about my reasons.
She seemed fine with it and didn't get angry.
My real issue is that I would like to date someone, but I have lost all confidence in myself, and have started to be scared to go on these blind dates. I've had a lot turn out bad in the past so I get scared it will be another bad experience that I don't need.
But I know you have to take risks and risk getting rejected to find someone you connect with.
I just had having this crippling shyness and anxiety, it's only when I'm alone too. Like I was out with my friends last night and it never even occurs to me to be shy but when I'm alone I feel terrified.
I almost feel like I need to hire a guy just to walk around with me so I can do normal chores like grocery shopping without being too scared to leave my house.
If it's something like going to work I have no problem though. I sometimes wonder if it's because I've been on the night shift so many years.
Going out early in the day or in sunlight seems to terrify me, but leaving my apartment at 1am is totally not an issue.
I am just confused, I hate feeling crippled by shyness, and how random it is.
I mean I speak in front of large groups of people on a weekly basis, telling really personal stories about myself, like really humiliating things, and I don't feel shy at all.
People will often say they are amazed by my confidence, so why it just going to the store across the street or my building's laundry room overwhelms me with fear?
It's just the fact that it seems to fluctuate so much, I can't figure out what causes it to come on so suddenly almost like an attack of fear and shyness and then other days I am the opposite where I feel so comfortable I can do anything.