Hello all, my first post and it's kind of a vent.
I've known this girl since she and I were young. I met her when she was about 12 and myself 15 and I kinda saw her as a little sister when were young, someone to protect.
Unfortunately my feelings changed as we got older, I started to like her and she did in turn with me. This is when the frustration starts.
Whenever I was single she wasn't and when I wasn't single she was, this literally went on for 2-3 years I think. It seemed that life was always getting in the way of us.
Anyway flash forward to the beginning of this year, early January. She tells me that she can't talk to me any more because of the confusion of when she's with someone else. We ended up having a falling out over this and stopped talking. We got back in touch recently, around a month ago.
So to my surprise she is newly single and so am I, here's the problem.......I'm thousands of miles away working until the end of July next year! The amount of frustration I am feeling is beyond any I have ever had. So I'm fed up, frustrated and generally upset. My work is lonely as it is and it depresses me to think that I'm missing an opportunity to finally be with someone I truly care for. I've had other relationships but I always seem to come back to her.
Not only that but I feel like a complete coward whenever I talk to her now, I'm afraid to even discuss my feelings with her because of the long absence.
I already know the solution really, move on etc. I don't want to though and I'm not sure what I'm looking for by posting this here, perhaps someone else has been through this. Anyone, any suggestions?
I've known this girl since she and I were young. I met her when she was about 12 and myself 15 and I kinda saw her as a little sister when were young, someone to protect.
Unfortunately my feelings changed as we got older, I started to like her and she did in turn with me. This is when the frustration starts.
Whenever I was single she wasn't and when I wasn't single she was, this literally went on for 2-3 years I think. It seemed that life was always getting in the way of us.
Anyway flash forward to the beginning of this year, early January. She tells me that she can't talk to me any more because of the confusion of when she's with someone else. We ended up having a falling out over this and stopped talking. We got back in touch recently, around a month ago.
So to my surprise she is newly single and so am I, here's the problem.......I'm thousands of miles away working until the end of July next year! The amount of frustration I am feeling is beyond any I have ever had. So I'm fed up, frustrated and generally upset. My work is lonely as it is and it depresses me to think that I'm missing an opportunity to finally be with someone I truly care for. I've had other relationships but I always seem to come back to her.
Not only that but I feel like a complete coward whenever I talk to her now, I'm afraid to even discuss my feelings with her because of the long absence.
I already know the solution really, move on etc. I don't want to though and I'm not sure what I'm looking for by posting this here, perhaps someone else has been through this. Anyone, any suggestions?
