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ofawanderingmind
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School has begun again, and has been going on for about two weeks. I am in my third year -my second last chance to create the memories which I will probably end up remembering for the rest of my life. It is also the year where grades really count, because these grades are what universities will look at when deciding whether I'm worth taking in for 4 years or not.
To be honest, high school has been okay for me so far. Though things haven't gone particularly well, the past two years have been bearable. However, I find that each year when school begins, I get very depressed.
There are many reasons as to why I am depressed, like my poor academic performance, my terrible athletic ability, my ever-diminishing level of brain power (I feel like I'm getting more and more stupid as the years pass by) and the list goes on and on. The most frustrating thing about it, is that everything only gets worse as time goes on. The more I experience, the more of a wreck I become.
The start of the school year also means I'll be interacting with people more often. Rather, I'll be seeing them, but not really interacting with them. When I see people, they mostly ignore me, unless it's one of my close friends. It's like I'm invisible. The most disheartening part is all of my friends have respectable people skills. One of my best friends is very well-liked and everyone talks to him. When ever someone walks by us, they always say "hi, ______" even though they know me as long as they've known him. This may sound like a silly to be so sad about but being so completely ignored (along with having all the rest of my issues) hurts so much. I'm like his sidekick, or something.
Whoops, I digress. I guess I just have a lot on my mind. Sorry if this isn't well written, I'm just blurting things out for now.
Now you have an "idea" of what I'm like. Try picturing me Go ahead. (hint: if your picturing tall and handsome, you're off).
If you're still having trouble, I'll just say it straight up: I'm unpopular, awkward and shy. I'm not particularly attractive. The worst bit is I'm a measily 5'2 and am showing no sign of growing, as I haven't grown an inch in the past 2 years and there's nothing I can do about it. Girls almost never talk to me, and if they do it's all work related (and even that is limited to 2 to 3 sentences).
How the hell is a guy like me supposed to "confident"? How am I supposed to compete with everybody else.
When I compete, I mean "in terms of in life in general", but this post is already getting long winded so for now I mean compete "with other guys for girls".
There is a girl, who I've liked for a while now. Ever since I've known her in fact, which is about 2 years now. Still I haven't gotten over her. She's cute, enthusiastic,quirky, cheerful and pretty much ever other positive adjective out there can describe her in some way or another. This year she is most of my classes so I see her at least twice everyday. I dream of being so happy, talking to her, hanging out with her and being special to her.
However, I am currently as far from that as I possibly can be right now.
Okay, I'm exaggerating. From what I know, she sees me as some random average dude. At my school she's I am willing to do things / I've already gone as far as joining as many of the clubs I know she has joined this year so we can have more contact. The thing is I'm not sure whether all this is actually worth a try. I mean, I've done my research: girls just don't like short guys. You can try to convince me all you want, but fact is fact. This is all just great for me, because I've got no confidence which is apparently another big part of it. She's about the same height as me. A bit shorter or taller, I can't say for sure -I don't think I've stood close enough to her before to be able to make that estimation.
Assuming the best case scenario, where she finds my height bearable, how do I approach her and befriend her, without creeping her out? How will things elevate? What kinds of things I seriously have no experience with this sort of thing. whatsoever.
I know, I know. You're just some person sitting on the other side of a computer somewhere far away. How would you know how to help? All you can do is give me general advice. Be confident, groom yourself, make her laugh, blah blah blah. It's so frustrating (no offence of course, but it's the truth).
This post is my act of desperation. I have no one to talk to about all of these things, so I'm forced to bottle it up. Half the point of this post was to let it all out (the other half of course, is for advice). Even now, i don't feel completely satisfied. I guess this is one of those things which are better of discussed in real life. However, I have no one for that right now.
Can anyone who has been in a similar situation as myself give me any advice? I say "similar situation" because I've read posts similar to mine online before and all I see in the comments are "I'm 5'11/6'2/(some other height which would qualify as tall) and I don't see what you're complaining about..."
Of course you don't. You don't know the frustration of being shorter than most girls your age. However, if you can give me advice concerning how to talk to girls, please do. I just need something of substance, not the generic nonsense.
(Sorry if this last bit sounds harsh. I'm feeling really down right now. Sure, you tall people don't know how tough it is, but it's not like it's your fault. It's what you were lucky enough to be born with)
Please, everyone. Any advice is useful.
Cheers.
To be honest, high school has been okay for me so far. Though things haven't gone particularly well, the past two years have been bearable. However, I find that each year when school begins, I get very depressed.
There are many reasons as to why I am depressed, like my poor academic performance, my terrible athletic ability, my ever-diminishing level of brain power (I feel like I'm getting more and more stupid as the years pass by) and the list goes on and on. The most frustrating thing about it, is that everything only gets worse as time goes on. The more I experience, the more of a wreck I become.
The start of the school year also means I'll be interacting with people more often. Rather, I'll be seeing them, but not really interacting with them. When I see people, they mostly ignore me, unless it's one of my close friends. It's like I'm invisible. The most disheartening part is all of my friends have respectable people skills. One of my best friends is very well-liked and everyone talks to him. When ever someone walks by us, they always say "hi, ______" even though they know me as long as they've known him. This may sound like a silly to be so sad about but being so completely ignored (along with having all the rest of my issues) hurts so much. I'm like his sidekick, or something.
Whoops, I digress. I guess I just have a lot on my mind. Sorry if this isn't well written, I'm just blurting things out for now.
Now you have an "idea" of what I'm like. Try picturing me Go ahead. (hint: if your picturing tall and handsome, you're off).
If you're still having trouble, I'll just say it straight up: I'm unpopular, awkward and shy. I'm not particularly attractive. The worst bit is I'm a measily 5'2 and am showing no sign of growing, as I haven't grown an inch in the past 2 years and there's nothing I can do about it. Girls almost never talk to me, and if they do it's all work related (and even that is limited to 2 to 3 sentences).
How the hell is a guy like me supposed to "confident"? How am I supposed to compete with everybody else.
When I compete, I mean "in terms of in life in general", but this post is already getting long winded so for now I mean compete "with other guys for girls".
There is a girl, who I've liked for a while now. Ever since I've known her in fact, which is about 2 years now. Still I haven't gotten over her. She's cute, enthusiastic,quirky, cheerful and pretty much ever other positive adjective out there can describe her in some way or another. This year she is most of my classes so I see her at least twice everyday. I dream of being so happy, talking to her, hanging out with her and being special to her.
However, I am currently as far from that as I possibly can be right now.
Okay, I'm exaggerating. From what I know, she sees me as some random average dude. At my school she's I am willing to do things / I've already gone as far as joining as many of the clubs I know she has joined this year so we can have more contact. The thing is I'm not sure whether all this is actually worth a try. I mean, I've done my research: girls just don't like short guys. You can try to convince me all you want, but fact is fact. This is all just great for me, because I've got no confidence which is apparently another big part of it. She's about the same height as me. A bit shorter or taller, I can't say for sure -I don't think I've stood close enough to her before to be able to make that estimation.
Assuming the best case scenario, where she finds my height bearable, how do I approach her and befriend her, without creeping her out? How will things elevate? What kinds of things I seriously have no experience with this sort of thing. whatsoever.
I know, I know. You're just some person sitting on the other side of a computer somewhere far away. How would you know how to help? All you can do is give me general advice. Be confident, groom yourself, make her laugh, blah blah blah. It's so frustrating (no offence of course, but it's the truth).
This post is my act of desperation. I have no one to talk to about all of these things, so I'm forced to bottle it up. Half the point of this post was to let it all out (the other half of course, is for advice). Even now, i don't feel completely satisfied. I guess this is one of those things which are better of discussed in real life. However, I have no one for that right now.
Can anyone who has been in a similar situation as myself give me any advice? I say "similar situation" because I've read posts similar to mine online before and all I see in the comments are "I'm 5'11/6'2/(some other height which would qualify as tall) and I don't see what you're complaining about..."
Of course you don't. You don't know the frustration of being shorter than most girls your age. However, if you can give me advice concerning how to talk to girls, please do. I just need something of substance, not the generic nonsense.
(Sorry if this last bit sounds harsh. I'm feeling really down right now. Sure, you tall people don't know how tough it is, but it's not like it's your fault. It's what you were lucky enough to be born with)
Please, everyone. Any advice is useful.
Cheers.
