Giving up on humanity without being negative. Is this possible?

[Retrospective81]

Okay, this is not as straight forward as it sounds and actually not going to be written in a negative nor pessimistic manner. Please bear with me.

I have a desire now to give up on people. But strange as it seems, love them from afar. I Don't wish to be involved with people here in the outside world because of the pain and frustration I've gone through in my encounters with them. But what I really want is just to have a peace in my heart with them. To just always keep in mind that they are just a flawed imperfect reflection of myself if you understand where I am coming from?

I've already given up on politics and religion for my own personal reasons and what I feel I know about them from my own personal experiences and perceptions. This has helped immensely in defusing my anger and aggression towards humanity.

In the outside world I walk in the street, but I often go in my own 'little world' and block out much of the 'rat race' that I can. I am also finding this beneficial to myself.

Eye contact with people apart from my job is kept to a real minimum. the reason for that is because in my experience I've always felt and seen that people don't understand me (by their body language/facial expressions) or have little time to even just smile at me these days. I'm sure its not just me they are doing it to, but deep down, real deep down, I'm a warm hearted person wanting to love and spread joy, but in this day and age of angst etc I am finding it 'soul draining and soul destroying'. You may feel or even say that I sound like a 'lost soul' in this world and to be honest, you could be right.

I'm also trying to have very little opinion and expectations of humanity as a whole. I want, to say to people if I ever am asked about my opinion of anything to ' just let it be'.

In conclusion I am just trying to live in my own little world and keep all what is good to myself and maybe, just maybe to a few people I know who can embrace all I have to offer here. Maybe those people are hereon ALL (I'm sure a few are, but not fully distinguished who they are yet.), or even out there. I'm not yet sure. I am taking my time. I already have 2 friends on Skype who do understand me and didn't give up on me. For that I am grateful and it's why I am here and who I am today. Maybe clouds to have silver linings.

I hope I can elaborate here fully without anyone feeling that I am being negative. I would be grateful for any open minded responses.

Thank You for reading.

 

[stuff4096]

I kind of get what you're saying I think. I also feel that the world/humanity in general is getting worse. So much is different from when I was a kid. The types of things I worried about when I was a kid are way different than what kids worry about these days, or perhaps it is my perception that has changed :S Even though my view may seem negative, I do not believe I am inherently that type of person. So I did not view your post as negative, nor do I perceive you as negative. Sometimes the best thing you can do is "do you". I would offer this though - the good ones may be few and far between, but they do exist. I would just hate to think you would miss out on one of the good ones simply because you are living too entirely in your own world. I too struggle with this and some days/weeks are rougher than others. This may sound cliche, but I think this quote is valid: "The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing". Obviously evil is too strong of a word for this situation but hopefully you can see where I am going with this

Anyhow, best of luck to you

By the way, LOVE the avatar! Go Raccoon Mario

 

[MTrip]

I would offer this though - the good ones may be few and far between, but they do exist. I would just hate to think you would miss out on one of the good ones simply because you are living too entirely in your own world.

That's a great point.

What Retrospective81 is describing is a balancing act....If you can do it, 81, then...my compliments. I too lost faith in humanity a long time ago but frankly, the balance you aim for is too tricky for me. While anger & aggression toward humanity does indeed take a lot of energy, a studied contempt is a more low-key setting that is easier to maintain. You can try to avoid that if you like....but if upon further observation of people in daily life, you find yourself turning misanthropic, I have two things for you:

1. I told you so.
2. Congratulations & join the club!