oh god yes! there was a woman in 6th form college who was going of to university to be a singer, and se used to sing before class starts to herself and women who can sing REALLY just melt me to goop, to me it gives them an angelic quality and it was like.....if they made chocolate for your ears honestly.
and i am and always was aweful with women, she was 17 so here above the age of consent and so a woman, she was super intelligent, and she started liking me because i was and am a shaman and used mushrooms for my religion and she thought that was really interesting, the body language was all there,hand on my knee, she would go out of the way to do things like in the class (sociology) we had to make a sociologically based brain teaser or word search or crossword and we were grouped as partners to joint do this but it was just a trivial thing the teacher had us do as it was like the last week before xmas and we had done everything serious that needed doing, anyway she had spent the night before making the most intelligent elaborate cryptic crossword based on very complex sociological concepts that must have taken hours and just she would do things like that to get my attention....but i was just new to college and hadn't learned how to interact with girls coz my parents fuct my head up with women as a child, anyhow i was so attracted to her and she attracted to me we would have been great together, i could have even taken her on wonderful shamanic adventures exploring worlds most never see and she could sing to the spirits.....but i just snubbed her attempts at getting my attention so much she grew cold toward me, after that i would just stare at her now with a huge crush i had ruined any chance at
i just didnt know how to take the affection i was used to being bullied and abused my whole life to be honest, id only just stopped cutting myself from how bad my parents and the whole school treated me til i got to college
so have you ever stolen a load of little packets of condiments/ketchup/sauces from a restaurant to take home so you dont have to buy any