I hate myself so much right now. Why can’t I value myself more. My husband does not love me. I know it in my gut but I keep ignoring it. I should leave him but I’ve known him since I was 4, been with him since 16, married since 21. We have 2 kids and 2 grand babies on the way. His family is my family. I don’t know how to be without him. So I stay and hate myself instead.