JacksonsMind
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[font=.SF UI Text][font=.SFUIText]So my name is Jackson, 22 from London.[/font][/font]
[font=.SF UI Text][font=.SFUIText]My ‘loneliness’ I guess you could say started early. I’ve always just felt a bit out of place and cursed. Example, when I was in year 7 I got called a chav for listening to grime, five years later, everyone was listening to it, I still feel like these things happen constantly. My social anxiety is fairly bad, when I’ve been in relationships there are days when I had to ask my SO to do simple things like buy my cigarettes because I felt too awkward to ask. It’s also been a reason for why my relationships come to an end, I’ve heard ‘I’m different to the rest’ countless times and they all have walked out of my life. Another problem of mine is opening up,because a lot Of the time I don’t know what’s wrong,it’s like a looming feeling of misery follows me around for no reason. I do self medicate using weed (I only drink on Fridays at work) which despite its cons really does help, gives me more confidence and helps me focus, but I can’t be stoned all the time. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve never wanted tonnes of friends, but at times when things get bad and my mental health takes a dip I just end up feeling lost, like I have literally nobody to turn to, despite finding myself always trying to help others. I don’t like to talk to my family about it. And when I have opened up to people about it I get told ‘you’re a good looking guy, you shouldn’t be lonely’ or a personal favourite ‘man up,you’ll be okay’ to be honest I’m not sure what I’m looking for, maybe I need some new friends, maybe I just need one person to show me love again.[/font][/font]
[font=.SF UI Text][font=.SFUIText]I’m a gamer (PS4, currently playing the new Ghost Recon) I write poetry and songs to help feel understood, and also do freelance graphic design for personal and business purposes[/font][/font]
[font=.SF UI Text][font=.SFUIText]Hello all [/font][font=.AppleColorEmojiUI]
PS I totally messed up my time zone, but I am from London.[/font][/font]
[font=.SF UI Text][font=.SFUIText]My ‘loneliness’ I guess you could say started early. I’ve always just felt a bit out of place and cursed. Example, when I was in year 7 I got called a chav for listening to grime, five years later, everyone was listening to it, I still feel like these things happen constantly. My social anxiety is fairly bad, when I’ve been in relationships there are days when I had to ask my SO to do simple things like buy my cigarettes because I felt too awkward to ask. It’s also been a reason for why my relationships come to an end, I’ve heard ‘I’m different to the rest’ countless times and they all have walked out of my life. Another problem of mine is opening up,because a lot Of the time I don’t know what’s wrong,it’s like a looming feeling of misery follows me around for no reason. I do self medicate using weed (I only drink on Fridays at work) which despite its cons really does help, gives me more confidence and helps me focus, but I can’t be stoned all the time. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve never wanted tonnes of friends, but at times when things get bad and my mental health takes a dip I just end up feeling lost, like I have literally nobody to turn to, despite finding myself always trying to help others. I don’t like to talk to my family about it. And when I have opened up to people about it I get told ‘you’re a good looking guy, you shouldn’t be lonely’ or a personal favourite ‘man up,you’ll be okay’ to be honest I’m not sure what I’m looking for, maybe I need some new friends, maybe I just need one person to show me love again.[/font][/font]
[font=.SF UI Text][font=.SFUIText]I’m a gamer (PS4, currently playing the new Ghost Recon) I write poetry and songs to help feel understood, and also do freelance graphic design for personal and business purposes[/font][/font]
[font=.SF UI Text][font=.SFUIText]Hello all [/font][font=.AppleColorEmojiUI]
PS I totally messed up my time zone, but I am from London.[/font][/font]
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