Hi, so just thought id post my story. I'm twenty four and from the uk. The winter I left school I started a relationship with a girl and was living in bliss. Around that Xmas while I was staying with family, my then partner was attacked and ended up pregnant. Due to love I decided to remain with the girl and would help her raise the child. To be honest after all that had gone on we had finally began to accept our situation and it may sound strange but were looking forward to having our own little family. Around 15 weeks my then partner had a miscarriage and was absolutely devastated, she did not want to see me and as she was young like me her family sent her to stay with family in the states.
She stayed there for three months and when she came home said she didn't want to continue the relationship and I have only seen her once in six years since and for a round three months descended into drug use and became a real **** to everyone around me. There is hardly a day goes by where I don't think about the whole situation. Guilt, anger, sorrow and a desperate feeling of loneliness. I have only had one real relationship since. Now I feel so alone and depressed, but keeping a fake smile on your face can be tiresome and today it 6pm in the uk and I haven't moved out of bed. I have never felt suicidal but do feel so alone. Anyway that's my story hopefully others may draw strength from it. Thanks
She stayed there for three months and when she came home said she didn't want to continue the relationship and I have only seen her once in six years since and for a round three months descended into drug use and became a real **** to everyone around me. There is hardly a day goes by where I don't think about the whole situation. Guilt, anger, sorrow and a desperate feeling of loneliness. I have only had one real relationship since. Now I feel so alone and depressed, but keeping a fake smile on your face can be tiresome and today it 6pm in the uk and I haven't moved out of bed. I have never felt suicidal but do feel so alone. Anyway that's my story hopefully others may draw strength from it. Thanks