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every once in awhile I have these thoughts....thoughts about walking around shooting people. Some of them have done wrong to me others were just in the area. Basically everyone around me! I fear these thoughts because sometimes there hard to control and I don't know what causes them. I thought it was the music and games I listen to and play but I think it could be some sort of disorder, I am easily angered and I have low motivation and I don't know what to do! I don't wanna see a therapist for fear that theyll tell others cos its only confidential if it doesnt envolve you or others being hurt or killed so the only thing I can think of is to kill myself because it would be selfish to stay alive and hurt others but I dont wanna die cos Id miss people to much like the love of my life Chelsea! I want to see a therapist but I'm afraid to. and its not like i dont care about others when others I love are sad I try to help them and when I watch movies that have people dying and their friends or family crying and morning I cry too just like I cry to certain song cos there so sad! I cried to the movie The Green Mile when the big Black dude got executed and I cry to the song My Immortal by Evanescence I dont know what to do Can someone please give me advice on this!!! I don't want to hurt others I know these thoughts arent right and I wanna stop them!! Please help me!!