I remember when it was really bad, when every moment was agony filled with black torment. I cried a lot, every day, every other day, every few days, any combination.
The more time that passed the more I became numb and empty and cried less and less, the intervals became further and further apart. Even after I came back and then all that **** happened, I never cried like before.
Now, I'm completely numb and empty and I never cry. I can't remember the last time I really broke down. I think those 3-4 months took all the tears I had, cause I just can't do it anymore. The pain is gone, there is nothing to let out, I can't let out nothing.