hunger strike

[Doubt The Rabbit]

Lol, he could be serious. All the more reason to let him know how silly he's being.
Even if somehow there is some part of his brain that thinks all this logical and we just left him be...really, what completely sane person in the outside world would right off the bat look at a sunken-eyed, emaciated person and think, "That's a person I want to hang out with!" or even, "That's a person I want to talk to and get to know!"

What I don't get is - why is it that something as troublesome and potentially dangerous as starving oneself still seems like the better option when all he has to do is take a damn step out of his house for something new to happen? Go see a movie, obtain a hobby, buy some groceries. Damn. Tell the cashier about your cats. Ain't like she has any choice but to stand there and make polite conversation with you. Whether or not OP is hungry has nothing to do with his problem outside of the fact that he is self-loathing and doesn't want to admit it.

 

[soresoul]

Haha be my luck if I go to the grocery store and started talking about cats to the cashier,a guy wity a camera crew would come out from the back asking me what intentions did I have talking to the cashier about cats?

 

[theraab]

Hey guys,
what is wrong with the ole saying if you can't say nothing nice or support, then don't say anything at all? Yeah we may not agree on this person choice he's making but cmon making endless negative remarks going to change this person mind?

One, I'm not trying to change anyone's mind about anything.

Two, if he has the willpower to deny one of the most basic human needs for the next three weeks, then he clearly has the willpower to change his life into the life he wants.

Three, you want sympathy, it's in the dictionary between "****" and "syphilis". We just passed the one year anniversary of when it was recommended that my Jackie go home on hospice - she had already been through close to a year of chemo, could hardly walk, had sores in her mouth so she could barely eat, and when she woke up from surgery, she had a jejunostomy (which is where a piece of intestines is fished through the exterior of the abdominal wall, and a bag is hung over it to collect your ****) - despite this, when the doctor recommended hospice she said, "No, I'm going to go home and keep on fighting" - and she kept that attitude through the next 6 months as she went through kidney failure, daily liquid nutrition (because her body couldn't absorb enough fluids or nutrition because of the ostomy), the skin peeling off her hands, bedsores, vomiting so often that we had to use two buckets (so she had one to throw up in while I cleaned out the other), and pain that the rest of us can probably only imagine - and she kept fighting - even when I could feel the tumors under her skin when I changed the ostomy equipment, she kept fighting. So I don't want to hear about saying nice things to people who just want to give up.

But, to be fair, I won't make light of the situation anymore, either.

 

[SophiaGrace]

Okay. Guys. I was born with a severe disability. Sometimes when I tell people about it it makes them feel bad, like they can't complain about anything in their life. This feels unfair to me, i am not superior to other people. I am a normal person trying to live a normal life like everyone else. I am no one's hero just for trying to live my life. I want love, food, water, schooling, a retirement plan, just like everyone else. That is not heroic. Everyone has their own challenges and should have equal respect. I only tell people about my congenital disability because I feel like they aren't accepting me for who I am if they don't know about it.

 

[Doubt The Rabbit]

Hey guys,
what is wrong with the ole saying if you can't say nothing nice or support, then don't say anything at all? Yeah we may not agree on this person choice he's making but cmon making endless negative remarks going to change this person mind?

One, I'm not trying to change anyone's mind about anything.

Two, if he has the willpower to deny one of the most basic human needs for the next three weeks, then he clearly has the willpower to change his life into the life he wants.

Three, you want sympathy, it's in the dictionary between "****" and "syphilis". We just passed the one year anniversary of when it was recommended that my Jackie go home on hospice - she had already been through close to a year of chemo, could hardly walk, had sores in her mouth so she could barely eat, and when she woke up from surgery, she had a jejunostomy (which is where a piece of intestines is fished through the exterior of the abdominal wall, and a bag is hung over it to collect your ****) - despite this, when the doctor recommended hospice she said, "No, I'm going to go home and keep on fighting" - and she kept that attitude through the next 6 months as she went through kidney failure, daily liquid nutrition (because her body couldn't absorb enough fluids or nutrition because of the ostomy), the skin peeling off her hands, bedsores, vomiting so often that we had to use two buckets (so she had one to throw up in while I cleaned out the other), and pain that the rest of us can probably only imagine - and she kept fighting - even when I could feel the tumors under her skin when I changed the ostomy equipment, she kept fighting. So I don't want to hear about saying nice things to people who just want to give up.

But, to be fair, I won't make light of the situation anymore, either.

Can I give ya a hug? It certainly ain't the same thing, but my mom and I decided to take my sister off of hospice (she's been on it for 3 years...obviously she ain't dying yet) and reading that about your fiancee makes me feel that, definitely, she (my sister) has the same fighting spirit (I didn't wanna say it but that's why I found it pretty rich that OP "knows pain").
And you forgot about yourself, bro. Of course the pain and discomfort she experienced can only be unimaginable to the rest of us, but to watch it and know that, whatever you do, it isn't going to change the inevitable - that's pain. That's a lot of pain. Countless times, people in your position have killed themselves. Yet, I'm talkin' to you and you're here, telling us about the things you've seen and gone through right alongside the person you loved. She probably met her match in strength with you.
Or, I d'know. That's what I thought when I read it.



So yeah, eat and go find something to do, OP. Stop being a child.

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Okay. Guys. I was born with a severe disability. Sometimes when I tell people about it it makes them feel bad, like they can't complain about anything in their life. This feels unfair to me, i am not superior to other people. I am a normal person trying to live a normal life like everyone else. I am no one's hero just for trying to live my life. I want love, food, water, schooling, a retirement plan, just like everyone else. That is not heroic. Everyone has their own challenges and should have equal respect. I only tell people about my congenital disability because I feel like they aren't accepting me for who I am if they don't know about it.

Sometimes a person needs to hear about situations worse than their own in order to put their own lives into perspective. For instance, in reading theraab's post, I thought about how grateful I am that my sister isn't suffering from a type of disease that causes her violent symptoms like vomiting or bleeding or teeth falling out or the like. Epillepsy is easily controlled. I do realize it's still a **** situation. But it's not as bad as it could be. And that's nice. Sometimes it's a good thing to be humbled by those kinds of things.

 

[Lilianna]

The universe doesn't give a ****. It will not be bargained with, intimidated, coerced, sweet-talked, guilted, or pressured. It's all you.

More truer words were never spoken. It is all you! You make your own way, and own happiness, or you don't. It is all down to you. The sooner you realize no one, and nothing can bring you what you seek, the better.
That being said, I feel your pain, been there...please eat or at least drink a lot of water, until you feel you can eat again.

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Oh man, I had the most delicious breakfast this morning - a nice stack of pancakes that were the perfect golden-brown, with just enough syrup to sweeten them, but not too much, with strawberries and whipped cream; and a couple strips of bacon and a small glass of OJ. It's those kind of breakfasts that really make you want to get out of bed in the morning.

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Whoops! I meant to post this in the food porn thread. My bad.

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Yum!

 

[OhGodImLonely]

Hello guys, so here's an update of my food deprivation (suicide) :

30 hours without food. Still I feel down. I'm not that hungry but I have some bad negative thoughts crossing my mind every minute, reminiscence of ****** moments in my life. I try to avoid them but it's useless, I can't.

I went out this afternoon, had a 3h walk around town to get some fresh air and it did me some good actually. Back home I had a herb tea of some sort. I got really bored so I took a bath. While in the bath it got worse, the negative thoughts and all came back straight away.

Now I'm writing this. I don't know where all this is going to lead me. The only wish that I have right now is to never have existed in the first place. I can't say that I want to die because I don't know what is going to become of me after death. Death frightens me.

But if I could chose to die and be at peace then I would rather die right now.

 

[Lilianna]

Oh? Maybe you're a Crepe kind of guy?

By the way, it isn't a "cause". Toys for Tots is a cause. You're just disgruntled and taking it out by not eating and thinking that it'll change your life. Yeah, because updating us on your uninterestingly empty stomach is going to increase your chances of something "new" happening to you.

OMG! Getting sooooo hungry! Delicious!

 

[SophiaGrace]

Do you want to talk with us about what is bothering you? We are here to listen.

 

[OhGodImLonely]

Do you want to talk with us about what is bothering you? We are here to listen.

I don't really know. Maybe the fact that my health isn't that good, that I've got almost no friends at all, that I'm nearly 30 and haven't achieved anything in life, that I just don't know what to do with my life.

 

[SophiaGrace]

Do you want to talk with us about what is bothering you? We are here to listen.

I don't really know. Maybe the fact that my health isn't that good, that I've got almost no friends at all, that I'm nearly 30 and haven't achieved anything in life, that I just don't know what to do with my life.

I think a lot of people are confused about life. Have you held jobs? what've you done since graduating high school? Tell me more.

It doesn't matter you don't have friends (at least to me), it doesn't impinge upon the worth of you as a human being.

 

[Lilianna]

Call 1-800-273-8255

 

[Mans]

Be succeed, continue please .........

 

[OhGodImLonely]

Do you want to talk with us about what is bothering you? We are here to listen.

I don't really know. Maybe the fact that my health isn't that good, that I've got almost no friends at all, that I'm nearly 30 and haven't achieved anything in life, that I just don't know what to do with my life.

I think a lot of people are confused about life. Have you held jobs? what've you done since graduating high school? Tell me more.

It doesn't matter you don't have friends (at least to me), it doesn't impinge upon the worth of you as a human being.

After high school I had a few jobs. I went travelling across the world. Then I got back to school at the age of 25 and took a degree in literature but did not finish. I didn't feel I could fit in. People were way younger than me.

I tried to get back to school this year but dropped out a few weeks after the start for the same reasons. I have just quit my job this week. And now I'm doing absolutely nothing. Right time to die.

 

[Barbaloot]

After high school I had a few jobs. I went travelling across the world. Then I got back to school at the age of 25 and took a degree in literature but did not finish. I didn't feel I could fit in. People were way younger than me.

I tried to get back to school this year but dropped out a few weeks after the start for the same reasons. I have just quit my job this week. And now I'm doing absolutely nothing. Right time to die.

So you've consistently made the wrong life choices, despite having more opportunities than most people on the planet, ****** your life over because of your wrong choices and now expect that somehow, through some magic, starving yourself will make your life better? It doesn't work that way.

 

[Lilianna]

I don't know if you are getting your PM's so I am posting this here.
Sorry to hear about your health, I myself have health problems as well as many others, it is not an easy thing to deal with. Society tells us we must do this and we must do that, be beautiful, drive a fast sexy car, make a lot of money, live in the biggest house, we must have a higher education, even that we must contribute in some way (a way dictated by someone else). It goes on and on...If any of these thing brought true peace of mind and happiness, all of those rich famous people out there wouldn't be committing suicide, drinking themselves into graves, doing drugs, getting divorces and marrying half a dozen times.......
You have to find inner peace and happiness, HOW? I don't know, it is for you to find, search for it. The important thing is realizing it is up to you then you have a starting point. Hugs to you.

 

[OhGodImLonely]

After high school I had a few jobs. I went travelling across the world. Then I got back to school at the age of 25 and took a degree in literature but did not finish. I didn't feel I could fit in. People were way younger than me.

I tried to get back to school this year but dropped out a few weeks after the start for the same reasons. I have just quit my job this week. And now I'm doing absolutely nothing. Right time to die.

So you've consistently made the wrong life choices, despite having more opportunities than most people on the planet, ****** your life over because of your wrong choices and now expect that somehow, through some magic, starving yourself will make your life better? It doesn't work that way.

I can't think properly. My head is full of thoughts that I can't even control. I don't know what to do.

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I don't know if you are getting your PM's so I am posting this here.
Sorry to hear about your health, I myself have health problems as well as many others, it is not an easy thing to deal with. Society tells us we must do this and we must do that, be beautiful, drive a fast sexy car, make a lot of money, live in the biggest house, we must have a higher education, even that we must contribute in some way (a way dictated by someone else). It goes on and on...If any of these thing brought true peace of mind and happiness, all of those rich famous people out there wouldn't be committing suicide, drinking themselves into graves, doing drugs, getting divorces and marrying half a dozen times.......
You have to find inner peace and happiness, HOW? I don't know, it is for you to find, search for it. The important thing is realizing it is up to you then you have a starting point. Hugs to you.

Thanks for your support.

 

[Barbaloot]

Go eat a sandwich and find a licensed therapist. They will help you.

 

[SophiaGrace]

After high school I had a few jobs. I went travelling across the world. Then I got back to school at the age of 25 and took a degree in literature but did not finish. I didn't feel I could fit in. People were way younger than me.

I tried to get back to school this year but dropped out a few weeks after the start for the same reasons. I have just quit my job this week. And now I'm doing absolutely nothing. Right time to die.

So you've consistently made the wrong life choices, despite having more opportunities than most people on the planet, ****** your life over because of your wrong choices and now expect that somehow, through some magic, starving yourself will make your life better? It doesn't work that way.

I can't think properly. My head is full of thoughts that I can't even control. I don't know what to do.

You may not be able to control the thoughts in your head, but you don't have to give up. The feelings and thoughts you have can be very overwhelming. I have overwhelming feelings and thoughts a lot, but I keep going despite this. I try my best to ignore these thoughts and feelings and have even grown to hate them. I still give into them sometimes and sometimes even become self-sabotaging. You just have to keep going.

Just because the people in college are younger than you doesn't mean it's not the right choice for you. You are awesome for even attempting college. College is for your benefit. I personally have some older people in my classes and I think it's great that they are educating themselves and getting a degree. I respect them for this and I respect you for even trying. I respect you for having had a job.

P.S. I love literature too.

 

[EveWasFramed]

Hello guys, so here's an update of my food deprivation (suicide) :

Im sorry, but suicide threads are not allowed on the forum. I've been watching this one, but up until now, you hadn't made any specific reference to suicide.
There are a few thread on the forum for the support of people who are considering ending their lives. Also, go to

www.suicide.org.