I am learning to accept my own reality

Imoral Christian · Aug 9, 2016

Hi
I was going to join up and post different way for people to contact me without using sofware that has rules and moderation. I don't want friends now anymore.
Right now l am learning to accept reality as l see it.
Please don't bother messaging this post it will probably be baned as soon as its posted.
My reality is this.
I can't ring life line they will not answer there my phone when l ring. They have me listed as a dangerous person.
I can't join the forums for sewerside prevention online. I wrote to contact us and they sent me a letter of rejection before l even joined them.
I was banned from Mental Health Forums and no reason was given why.
In fact l have been baned from ever forum l ever jioned in 46 years of living.
I was put on a DSP pension because the goverment said l was a danger to myself and others.
I swear l am not as bad a person that reality tells me.
I have been married 22 years and my wife says l am the best hudband in the world.
In all my life l have never spent time in jail.
My living corodinator says my ranting and venting has hurt a very lot of people.
This is the reality that l must accept.
Its not nice and at times l have walked up to a police man and asked him to get out his gun and blow my head off.
I used to be a christian a very good one for 30 years but now l see it all as double standards and people living as a group on a big tictional dream.
I got a person she goes out of her way to help me.
Problem is when l talk with her its all about me and never about her. I hurt myself with this person l yold her all about all the hidden things you keep to yourself at night.
Well ladt night l couldn't sleep l was full of worry and fear that l did something wrong.
That's all l have to share.
Moderator go ahead and baned me.
I probable offended every person here as soon as l opened my mouth.
To hell with rules.
To hell with moderation.
I am just trying to accept reality.
I can't get help l am reject all over the planet.
I am living hell on earth.
Bye

TheRealCallie · Aug 9, 2016

I didn't read anything in there that will get you banned.

Not sure what's going on in other places, but it's very unlikely that this will get you banned here. Why don't you tell us a little more about yourself. Not what other people tell you, but what you and your wife and people who care about you think. What do you enjoy?

Anyway, welcome to the forum.

movinggirl · Aug 9, 2016

I am so sorry you are miserable. I have somethings to suggest but I don't want to sound dumb. Ok, I'll suggest them anyway.

Do you have a pet? Pets are wonderful and they love you unconditionally. I have a dog and 2 cats and I love them to pieces. They are wonderful company.

Do you have any hobbies? I scrapbook, sometimes crochet, I love to read, I love watching movies too. I also love to go to the local lake and watch the boats and jet skis.

Just think about what I said, ok?

Much love to you.

Imoral Christian · Aug 10, 2016

TheRealCallie said:
I didn't read anything in there that will get you banned.

Not sure what's going on in other places, but it's very unlikely that this will get you banned here. Why don't you tell us a little more about yourself. Not what other people tell you, but what you and your wife and people who care about you think. What do you enjoy?

Anyway, welcome to the forum.

Earlier I was very upset.
I will call this a Forum honeymoon Stage.
It's a few days until moderators clamp down on a person.
It's when your no longer considered a new person.

I will not say nice to meet you until I been here for over a month.
I currently have zero trust and heaps of bad memory's to do with past forums.

Bye

Imoral Christian · Aug 10, 2016

I am going to try and settle in to these forums.
I have started a new thread called lmoral Christian's Venting and Ranting for stress release.
I am going to keep all my topics on the one thread.
So from now on l am not upkeeping this thread thank you.
My new thread is in general chat. Bye