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LeaningIntoTheMuse said:
VanillaCreme said:
Or the totally wrong path... If it feels like it's becoming an addiction in any way, my advice would be to just stop going to these sites. If you start to feel so completely guilty, then my advice to that would be to just stop using these sites. It wouldn't be the first time that someone disappears from a dating site, and it won't be the last.

True, but there is something to be said about strength in numbers.

I personally think that's something not to be implicated in trying to find someone to date, or even just talking to someone. But yeah, I see that point.
 
Now I have gone and made it worse. I meet one of the women I talked to and she was nothing like she was online. We went to a park and talked and could tell she was definitly not someone I wanted to be with. Next thing I know some guy comes up to us that knows her and says he is telling her whole family she has a boyfriend. This guy pulls me aside and gives me a condom and tells me to have sex with her. Next thing I know some other girl is there and goes up to her and starts saying things like OMG you have a boyfriend. Then the two of them offer to drive us home, I told them where I was staying and they drive right past the place and drop me off at the girls place and the guy looks and at me and just says have fun.

I ended up going inside even though I shouldn't and we watched a movie together. After it was over it was like 11 at night and she says well I guess it is time for bed and she pulled the sheets down and told me join her holy ****. I look out the window and we are litterialy in the middle of no where and I can't just walk home so I sit down on the bed and she says ok I am going to get ready. Now earlier when I said this chick was nothing like she was online, she was absolutly nothing liked she looked online, or acted like. Plus she smelled of cigaretes, whiskey and BO. I ended up pretending I was asleep when she came out of the bathroom just so nothing would happen. The whole night I couldn't sleep she kept touching me and all I could think of was I got to get out of here now. Next morning when she got up I told her I was going out to get something to eat and I ran lol.

Now you think after that experience I would have learned my lesson right? I went out with another girl from the same site and we went to Starbucks and I forgot there is a girl working there I talked to on the site as well. This girl was a lot more real from her profile. I ended up going in and I went to order something to drink and the other girl is there to serve me. She just shakes her head and stares at me the entire time I am sitting and talking with the girl I came there with.
 

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