i feel......

[jales]

screwed-up...and lonely and like i'm not brave enough to be myself...i hate scrolling through the names on my phone contact list and realizing that their i no one i can call. I hate the feeling that I need people and thinking that others are so much more independent because they need people less. I hate the feeling that there is no cure for this. I'm sitting in a room full of people right now and crying and of course there is no one to notice. Why do my interactions with people screw with my emotions so much?
I feel like a million different people in one and like at the end of this waiting game if there is no one ..
in fact i'm tired of waiting and i'm so convinced that there is no one
is this normal?
lol someone will hear me cry if i dont leave so now bye bye

and the worst part is that i know that i deserve all this pain

 

[NewBirth]

screwed-up...and lonely and like i'm not brave enough to be myself...i hate scrolling through the names on my phone contact list and realizing that their i no one i can call. I hate the feeling that I need people and thinking that others are so much more independent because they need people less. I hate the feeling that there is no cure for this. I'm sitting in a room full of people right now and crying and of course there is no one to notice. Why do my interactions with people screw with my emotions so much?
I feel like a million different people in one and like at the end of this waiting game if there is no one ..
in fact i'm tired of waiting and i'm so convinced that there is no one
is this normal?
lol someone will hear me cry if i dont leave so now bye bye

and the worst part is that i know that i deserve all this pain

i think everybody needs somebody some peeps just hide it better then others u know.
u know u dont deserve this pain either. i hope u realize that. i really wonder if theres anybody too or if itll always just be this way all solo and chit LoL but u know until i know for sure i cant let go of the hope.
so sorry youre crying & hope u feel better

 

[diamond-dancer]

I feel like a million different people in one

That's exactly what I said to myself this morning. I hate that feeling...that's the feeling that makes me feel different from everyone else.

We all need contact with other people....if we don't have it we start going crazy. It's normal to crave attention and affection from others and it in no way makes you a weaker person. It's just part of being human...

Do you really believe that you deserve to feel pain or is that something you say to yourself to justify feeling it..?