How are the trees doing? Become a badass at keeping those trees healthy, and you'll be more successful than so many others who try to do too much in life.
Focusing on a small scope is a great thing, and noone can ever take away the skills that you build from that. Let alone the natural talents you already possess.
We all lost the girl - I certainly ****** that up, many years ago

time is the best healer, and also the best tool for learning from your past.
You will do just fine - take baby steps, and get yourself to where you want to be, at the pace that comes naturally to you.