Aztorak said:
Hello everyone. Perhaps some of you remember me from here a bit over 4 months ago.
My life has experienced a new low since then. I'm sick and tired of it all, and have no idea how to deal with it in any constructive way. I'm too sensitive for this reality. Everyone is so horrible and I have no place to turn. My life is garbage, I am pathetic, and this world is chewing me into bits and pieces to be swallowed back up. I knew from the very beginning that I would hit a dead end, that is what makes every day a living nightmare.
I hope all of you are in better shape, because I wouldn't wish this feeling upon even my worst enemy.
Truly,
Aztorak (Aaron)
Greetings friend. Although everyone's journey is different, I felt similar feelings years back before I was able to transform internally & the exterior world had no choice but to mirror back what was inside. The truth is within....
A lot of people say, "There's no love in the world, I don't see love anywhere, so I have become hardened." Not realizing that glass shatters, feathers don't. For me, the secret to the 'power of love', is to remember that we have to love ourselves 100%, it all starts with self love. That is the secret of alchemists.
The world out there is a projection of your mind....In essence, we are a microcosm of our external world. Everything is taking place internally right now. By loving ourselves, by doing what we love, having fun, following our passion, we begin to experience the power of love. Love expands us. When we smile, we are expanding, love is unlimited. Fear is always in the 'known' and it prevents us from doing certain things. Fear is about order & not changing, while love embraces change. Love is unlimited energy.
We've mostly all been in situations when we love someone, we travel miles and miles just to see them. Only the power of love has the ability to do that. Fear just keeps us in the same position. Once we connect back within ourselves, there's no problems. All of what is taking place outside begins to fade away. You'll then have more energy to share with people.
Certain people say when we talk of alchemy. "How does one access their love energy within?" A lot of alchemists have gone through the darkest of moments to find that love within. Yes, because your demons are angels in disguise. It's gonna take challenging life situations to begin to love yourself. To realize that there is no good, or bad in the universe, there are only actions and consequences.
Nobody is out to get us except ourselves, as we are our own greatest enemy. We must see that love transcends duality of good and bad, left and right. It is the energy permeating everything in existence. We are all reconnecting, because we are all connected. Things aren't about pleasing people. It's great to be nice, but it's even better to be yourself. Letting go of perfection is where creation begins. When you really begin to express yourself 100%, that is the power of love. We must stop comparing ourselves to others....
Nobody is seeing the world in the same way because we are all creating our own unique reality, however, we can co-exist in harmony. The power of love is becoming your own guru. That is self love....To see that we're made from the same fabric as the universe. There is no need to worship outside of you. In essence, we have to just give honor to every single one that we come into contact with, because they are a reflection of the universe. More people are embracing themselves. Fitting into a world out there, we have to fit into a world in here.
It's never about what you say, it's the energy behind that matters. I say to myself, "YOU ARE ENOUGH!" It's not about living for other people. It's about living from your heartspace, then you can give back to other people. You can share yourself with other people freely because.....It is not a strain, it is not a stress, it is not a burden for you. When you love yourself from within, every single cell within your body is transformed, is reorganized, is rearranged, is reassembled. The greatest way to reach people is through love and not through fear. People open hearts, when you touch theirs. That is the secret.
Love is more powerful than fear, Once we can see that we are alchemists. An alchemist is someone that can turn any negative situation into a harmonious one, because an alchemist is someone that let's go of duality & separation. It is all about the wholeness within ourselves. To love ourselves and to embrace the power of love, we have to let go of who we think we are.
Try and be true to yourself and keep it moving. We are not in this world to live up to other peoples expectations. We are here to live our own truth(s) and share with others we feel resonance with. Love is always in front of fear. We must put love in the drivers seat because that is the only way to go through the metamorphosis.
Cheers if you read this far. Let me know if there is anything I can help you with as I am a great listener and will never pass judgement on you or anyone for that matter.
Peace,
I_still_believe (Liam)