I know I shouldn't be excited...but I am...

[Luna]

After much procrastination, I finally booked a consultation for my plastic surgery.
It won't be until late September, but I already am anxiously waiting for that time to come.

For the past while, I did try to stop putting so much importance into my appearance and focus on my personal development through hobbies etc.

I have made some progress.
In fact, I don't feel as disgustingly, vomit-inducing ugly as I did before.

But I don't feel beautiful either.

I will need a lot more than what I'm getting to be beautiful; and even then, plastic surgery has its limits.
You can't turn garbage into gold.

You don't have to respond.
I feel content just to be able to share my thoughts with someone.
But if you do, NO MORE HUGS.
I'm all hugged out...haha.

I feel fine. I really do.
I'm not expecting my life to do a 360 with the surgery.
I'll still be the same angry office girl that locks herself in her room every night, pouring her heart out to strangers that probably don't really care...
Still going out to dinner alone, or if I'm lucky, have my family to go with me.
Still wandering aimlessly during the weekends and trying to fill it either errands, volunteering or some other reasonable purpose.

But regardless, I'm still excited.
I only wish the time would pass faster.

 

[SophiaGrace]

.
You can't turn garbage into gold.

You arent garbage!! :/ What in the world would make you think this?

We luff you .

I'll still be the same angry office girl that locks herself in her room every night, pouring her heart out to strangers that probably don't really care...

But...but...we DO care!

 

[Matej]

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111111111111oneoneone
NONONONONONONONONO!

same angry office girl.. hm, maybe that's what you should not be.. angry I mean. Don't wanna scare people away, right?
Oh well, if you insist. But why don't you show a pic, so I can tell you that (and why) you don't need an operation?

And yes, as Sophia said. We do indeed care.
And you most certainly are not garbage, mkay? That clear? Pwetty pwease, ish dat cleah?

oh, and if you don't believe me... check Michael Jackson. Great music, fine appearance.. well when he started anyway. Then with every operation he looked uglier.. how's that fixing things? :|

 

[VanillaCreme]

Luna, you're gorgeous. :|

 

[Haz]

idk why you want to escape your physical appearance so badly

the grass isn't always greener on the other side, y'know.

 

[Lawrens]

Good luck to you Luna

Whatever steps you make, it's your choice, life is really short and I hope all of this are for the best

 

[Caroline]

I'm not expecting my life to do a 360 with the surgery.

Don't you mean 180? XD!! if it was a 360, you'd end up facing the same direction you were facing before. LOL.

 

[Luna]

I'm not expecting my life to do a 360 with the surgery.

Don't you mean 180? XD!! if it was a 360, you'd end up facing the same direction you were facing before. LOL.

LOL THAT'S RIGHT HAHAH.
D'OH.
I wuz a lil tired typing that.

But anyway, thanks for your posts everyone.

 

[mintymint]

I think it's great that you're proactively tackling the issues you face in life. And while I'm not too keen on the idea of surgery, it's your life not mine. Do what feels right. Do what makes you happy. I wish you a lot of luck Luna. BUT... I will state for the record that I think you're pretty darn cute the way you are

 

[Caroline]

Everyone but me seems to know how Luna looks like D:

 

[futurecatlady]

Luna, I'm considering it too. From what I've heard, the results in terms of emotional gain/loss really vary depending on the person. If it's one particular feature you've always hated, like a nose, it tends to work out quite well. I've seen people say their lives have completely transformed for the better. However, if it's a bunch of procedures with no real direction other than trying to get prettier, it might not turn to be what you expect. It's hard to make someone who's felt unattractive for so long suddenly feel attractive (at least, I imagine it would be hard for ME to suddenly feel attractive.)

The makemeheal.com message boards are a GREAT place to go for support and guidance. People are really informed and will give you honest opinions regarding plastic surgery. Not as close and personal as ALL, but very educational. The site as a whole is great, too.

Good luck, and update on your progress!