I remember them...

[desiderio]

I have a very active inner voice... it talks a bloody lot sometimes... "predicting" possible future discussions... remembering past memories... my inner voice was just reminding me of something...

People have come into my life, and people have left my life. Some fleetingly, some not so fleeting. Maybe it's just because I'm so lonely... but I think about them, from time to time.

I think about that last day in my home town when I was a kid, hanging out with a girl from school and just having fun - knowing that if I wasn't leaving, the next school day was going to be different, because of the fun we had had...

My best friend from that same home town... who I've not seen in 25 years... who I know now only via our parents Xmas letters...

I think of Narelle, because she was such a sweet girl, who turned into such a nasty goth... but then during one brief encounter years later at Uni, I saw that same sweet girl again...

And, of course, I think of R... she who needed my help to get together with my (new) best friend... who presumably couldn't see my heart breaking... It's been 19 years since I spoke to her... yet I google her name now and then... just to see what I can see...

I think of these people that have meant something to my life... and yet... how many have ever given a second thought about me? I'm the guy that people say goodbye to at the end of the day as they go home to their lives, and never give me a second thought... so why would these people be any different...

 

[Wayfarer]

Hm I think everybody sometimes thinks back on all the people they have met. I still think sometimes about my best friend (at the time) who moved 15 years ago. I never heard from him again and I don't know where he is. And all the rest too. You are never really forgotten... everyone... as long as they hated or loved you or whatever... they will think about you at times, just as you think about them.

 

[lifestream]

They remember you too. Perhaps not as intensely, but they do.

 

[Despicable Me]

I think of these people that have meant something to my life... and yet... how many have ever given a second thought about me? I'm the guy that people say goodbye to at the end of the day as they go home to their lives, and never give me a second thought... so why would these people be any different...

You're too hard on yourself. I would bet you anything they do remember you, just like you remember them.

I think about some people the same way you do. I'm also the guy who often got forgotten/ignored in school. I was the person who was so quiet I had no real friends and couldn't make any until later in High School.
And you know what? People I used to know do remember me and have even thought about me. How do I know? Because they've briefly mentioned me a couple of times on their Facebook accounts or whatever. I don't even use Facebook, but they remembered me.

You thinking back on those people is pretty normal. It's what we all do when we get older, we look back. So you should know that while you do it, they are probably doing it, too. Maybe not at the same time, but you never know.

It's odd though, for me. I'm someone who doesn't want to be remembered. People are better off without me.