SlavicNa97
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It is after christian modern holidays so I can get a bit more active, I have some headache so it is another thing but mainly by that I wasn't in 2nd day where family came over, I feel some useless (I haven't my own life, for what to sit down there? Only to eat? I have nothing to tell about..) and I had before eve and now it is stronger that I want to cry af. I know that I look some like **** but I know how it works in me (overating from family situation, I am sure about it because whenever I got a chance for calm time, I knew family is somewhere else for a while I could relax and I wasn't hungry or if I was, it was on normal, healthy level). I would like to work on myself, on body, I have plans for future but ofc I am locked like in a jail saying shortly.
I am on one dating platform Boo and kinda I was gaining a bit self-esteem and I matched with some people (I am the most hopeful about 1 but I texted 9 days ago and still I am waiting for a response, he is also introvert, I know it is "busy season" but still I feel some like Idk how to be to start talking and I keep waiting, I saw him often online).
Since a while I am attracted also to one bigger influencer for some reasons and I think we could be good but I know that I am low with it what I can to offer, I am not even after studies because of the "jail" (I am 27), I haven't normal work and I haven't normal course for anything. I have much dreams even about diving, kayaking courses. I have my own ideas for myself but saying simply I would like to break free and live on my own, start to live, get in dating deeper like more seriously. If I was on my own, I was working on myself, I would update photos on Boo, I would start with IG in my folk style and I would text even to the influencer.. Idk I feel in general super low and I feel by that in some way quilty that I am not able to give more in talks as a friend because of the very very low mood..
Kinda I feel more introvert but at the same time I don't want to be all alone, I want to scream and curse christian god about everything..
I am on one dating platform Boo and kinda I was gaining a bit self-esteem and I matched with some people (I am the most hopeful about 1 but I texted 9 days ago and still I am waiting for a response, he is also introvert, I know it is "busy season" but still I feel some like Idk how to be to start talking and I keep waiting, I saw him often online).
Since a while I am attracted also to one bigger influencer for some reasons and I think we could be good but I know that I am low with it what I can to offer, I am not even after studies because of the "jail" (I am 27), I haven't normal work and I haven't normal course for anything. I have much dreams even about diving, kayaking courses. I have my own ideas for myself but saying simply I would like to break free and live on my own, start to live, get in dating deeper like more seriously. If I was on my own, I was working on myself, I would update photos on Boo, I would start with IG in my folk style and I would text even to the influencer.. Idk I feel in general super low and I feel by that in some way quilty that I am not able to give more in talks as a friend because of the very very low mood..
Kinda I feel more introvert but at the same time I don't want to be all alone, I want to scream and curse christian god about everything..
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