you know, the other day i was just breathing air and thinking about what the meaning of life was, and i came to the conclusion that the meaning of life is the meaning that you give it. why try and have "a life" so that you can have something to talk about? you already have a life, so why would you want to replace it? i know you have thousands of interesting things to talk about. how do i know? because i'm just like you. most people don't appreciate me for me, so they fail to see that i'm an intelligent person with knowledge in diverse fields, that i am an artist and have so many hidden, spectacular talents, that i'm quite funny and quite the mood elevator, that i have a world of experiences and opinions to share, that even though i look like stone-cold murderer, i have a great big heart that's brimming with love, and that underneath this veil of loneliness and depression, i'm alive and full of power. people don't seem to value me. why? i'll don't care enough to know. it probably has to do with the way that i carry myself to the general public, but I DO VALUE MYSELF AND THAT'S ALL THAT COUNTS! i think you need to value yourself more. if you have the time, i would recommend that you read some self-help books. knowledge is power, and ever since i started seeking knowledge, i've become a better person with every passing day. some great reads i'd reccomend are "unlimited power" by tony robbins, "the purpose driven life" by pastor rick warren, and "the introvert advantage" by dr. marti laney. you sound like an introvert to me, and i'm one too, and i think this last book will really help you understand yourself. best of luck. you have a friend in me.