I'm a bad person

[CAS]

I'm nasty to people on this website, I push my friends away and now I've just gone and placed the cherry on top of the cake.

I punched my own father. The man who has given me everything in life. I was drunk, he was complaining that I'm drinking too muc lately, and I simply flew off the handle.

What kind of low-life hits their own father?

 

[mintymint]

Maybe you should take a break from the alcohol. Let your mind settle. Clearly it has a negative effect on your life right now.

 

[VanillaCreme]

When will you learn? (no)

 

[SophiaGrace]

 

[EveWasFramed]

All Im gonna say is the title had a word that you KNOW you cant use here and leave it at that. I changed it. Now, carry on with your thread...

 

[CAS]

Sorry Eve. I wasn't thinking. Thx for altering it.

 

[An archist]

Yeah, I've done bad things similar to that also. It's good that you've admited it to yourself and, wow, it took some balls to admit it to all of us. I'm too big a pussy to recount some of my more shameful wrong-doings publicly. But I'm a bad person too. I consider myself to be the embodiment of selfishness, cowardliness and weakness. I don't really know what to do if you consider yourself a bad person. I've been trying to accept it that I am. Not using it as an excuse to do more bad, but rather to think about the ****** things I've done often so that it keeps me humble and maybe prevents me from doing them again. Facing facts like this and being truly honest with yourself feels good.

It's very sorry that this happened, CAS. I know you feel guilty. But parents typically are nothing if not forgiving. Try and remember this and how it made you feel in the hopes that you don't do it again.

 

[SophiaGrace]

Sorry Eve. I wasn't thinking. Thx for altering it.

Thank you for being understanding of why she did it. .

 

[Zak]

Dude!!! You should really try doing something creative and no I m not being an ass!! Its from experience.

 

[Mike Moose]

I had an alcohol problem which led to destructive behaviour..Looking back now I see that I had an illness and my behaviour was symptoms of that illness..There's good and bad in everyone and for me the booze certainly changed my character into someone I couldn't identify with anymore.I guess I learned the hard way but at the time I didn't want to listen to anyone..depression and booze is a one way ticket to hell and it's a ******* nightmare..
I haven't had a drink for five and half years,I still have a depressive attitude towards life but at least now with a clear mind I can process these thoughts and not remain a victim..
Not sure if any of this will relate to you but as bad as you think you are any illness can distort your perspective..
I don't wanna come off as preachy but for me sharing thoughts with people certainly helps me cope with this experience that nature seems fit to give us