In one word. Post your current mood.

[DVEUS]

good

 

[Mr Seal The Albatros]

Guilty. That, and indecisive.

 

[InSearchOfPeople]

Guilty

Low.

I am glad you are alive!

It may sound stupid, but you know what....try gym, it works wonders. I dragged myself there this morning, through tears, through depression, through pain...I was sitting in a car, parked by the gym for 20 min still hesitating.... But when I walked out from there, I felt like I woke up from a night mare.

No need to push weights. Just do cardio for 20-30 min, but make sure you finish it. And then steam room or jakuzzi.

I agree. It does wonders on mood. Psychologically proven too. I always enter the gym a shy guy, and come out almost bouncing off the walls!

You don't even need a gym - you can do the same sort of thing from your own home and achieve similar results. Hell, even a brisk walk in the morning air can do wonders.

At home I get even more depressed, it's like the walls themselves are squashing me.
I try to get out the house with any reason.
And the gym is the best one. When I go there, I see all these happy healthy, active people, who are not alone. I kind of feel a bit related to them, because we share same gym, same jakuzzi, same steam room...
And there I can't give up in the middle, I would be embarrassed if someone sees me getting on the machine or in a class and leaving right after starting, which I can do at home, I can try two crunches and then give in my depression, thinking, why would I try, if no one cares about me anyways....

Today I feel unappreciated, underestimated, used, invisible, as if I am a substance without feelings or emotions.
And this is how people around me make me feel.

I wonder what in the world I can do to change that.

Sometimes I want to vanish....

My roommate is making comments like for example, that girls from my class want to go to a club on my BDay, just became they need a reason, or that someone invited me to CA, just because she wants to sign me in her program...or the guy I met at the bar, texted me, that he doesn't even remember my name...


It is unbearable. Am I making myself so freaking vulnerable, that people want to hurt me all the time?!?!?

 

[Solivagant]

It may sound stupid, but you know what....try gym, it works wonders. I dragged myself there this morning, through tears, through depression, through pain...I was sitting in a car, parked by the gym for 20 min still hesitating.... But when I walked out from there, I felt like I woke up from a night mare.

No need to push weights. Just do cardio for 20-30 min, but make sure you finish it. And then steam room or jakuzzi.

Doesn't have that effect on me, I'm afraid.

 

[DVEUS]

miffed...

 

[johnny196775Again]

coffee

 

[ladyforsaken]

So, so lonely.

*hugs* Jently.

Guilty. That, and indecisive.

Why do you feel guilty?

 

[Jently]

That's sweet of you Ladyforsaken. Many thanks and back at you

 

[Mr Seal The Albatros]

Guilty. That, and indecisive.

Why do you feel guilty?

I'll send you a PM if you don't mind. I don't want to accidentally put anyone in a bad mood.

 

[user 115627]

Peaceful...but also dumbfounded. I got reason for both at the moment.

 

[InSearchOfPeople]

I feel careless...or unable to care anymore.

Like a sick person, who was in agony for a while and after loosing every fight to the sickness (loneliness) just gave up of fighting it, but instead trying to see the pluses of it and start building from zero again with just what I have.

"Start where you are" said Chris Gardner. It's like a reset button. I wonder how many times I be able to press it, until I give up completely.

 

[Mr.YellowCat]

Unworthy

 

[Cavey]

Pissed

 

[ladyforsaken]

drained

 

[Arachne]

happy

 

[Cavey]

Content

 

[ladyforsaken]

Alone.

 

[Mr Seal The Albatros]

Alone.

*hugs*

 

[ladyforsaken]

Uncertain

Alone.

*hugs*

Thanks, Mr Seal.

 

[Arachne]

Fabulous