Is it over?

[Dear-_-Tragedy]

This has been the worst summer ever. Basically I went to Amsterdam for my 20th birthday and took a lot of drugs thinking I was cool but ended up getting psychosis and whilst in the psychotic episode I said a lot of things and did a lot of things I shouldn't have which really upset my girlfriend. We live in the same house at Uni now and she no longer takes any interest in me at all. She says she needs to time get over things I said because it hurt her.

I don't know what to do now because she means a lot to me and I don't want to lose her but she is slowly drifting away from me and I feel powerless. What should do? Maybe I have a lot of growing up to do or something. After the psychosis went I developed depression and still have it and feel like ending my life on almost a daily basis because I don't see the point in living anymore. I feel like I missed a lot out of this but I am tired, any help on what I should do would be greatly appreciated.

 

[Gutted]

I think that if you try to sort things out, you may only accelerate the drifting. What you shouldn't do is take drugs. Also share your story so that others don't. Good luck.

 

[Dear-_-Tragedy]

I have already shared the story with my mates. As for the relationship, I have decided to call it a day I have had enough. I know I can find someone new it will just take time. Back to single life eh?

 

[perfanoff]

This has been the worst summer ever. Basically I went to Amsterdam for my 20th birthday and took a lot of drugs thinking I was cool but ended up getting psychosis and whilst in the psychotic episode I said a lot of things and did a lot of things I shouldn't have which really upset my girlfriend. We live in the same house at Uni now and she no longer takes any interest in me at all. She says she needs to time get over things I said because it hurt her.

I don't know what to do now because she means a lot to me and I don't want to lose her but she is slowly drifting away from me and I feel powerless. What should do? Maybe I have a lot of growing up to do or something. After the psychosis went I developed depression and still have it and feel like ending my life on almost a daily basis because I don't see the point in living anymore. I feel like I missed a lot out of this but I am tired, any help on what I should do would be greatly appreciated.

What you need to do is first ask yourself who you are and then who you want to be, and then become that person. If she likes who you've become.. you might get back together.

Also, you do need to realize that your life is going to be shaped by your performance in college. Frankly you can't afford to be sitting there, skulking in your room.