love...........
i believe in
rocking chair romance.
LOL What is that you say? Well it is where we are old and grey, sitting in matching Rocking Chairs, holding hands, and loving each other as much as we did when we met.
Sappy Eh? i know i jus think that people nowadays dont really know what love is.lets say you love someone very deeply for all they are and are not. yet suddenly he decides he doesnt love you.....people expect you to stop loveing him saying"you have to move on ,time heals all" utter crap.they make you feel obsessive and like a stalker ,as if your love is dirty and you are filthy to try and make it work to not want to give in and say "fine ,screw you" which seems to be how it is.
that is what is considered norm and yet i find it hurts so much inside
i believe love is friendship ,the best of friends ,because the poundingof your heart,butterflies in your stomach it all ends and all you have is trust,loyality and friendship.without that you never had any kind of union at all except sexual,that doesnt last.
dont get me wrong sex is important ,there are many ways to have skinship with each other ,personally i would marry a handicapped man happily,he has a tongue...
.... we can find a way to make things work,and he sure is more likely to not cheat on you or dispose of your loyalty so easily.
it takes people who have been hurt physically,mentally,emotionally to know the real worth of love sometimes ,problem is many can be destroyed past the point of safely being able to show it no matter how much they value it if the abuse was bad enough.
not saying normal people cant find true love,not at all,many many do.i just think that many of them dont realize that true love comes very rarely and when it does how precious a gift it really is, that you have to work at it forever to keep it protected and nurtured.most "normals" also find out after many trials and errors.
have you ever felt this way....
1
I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. (have felt this only once with one person i loved very deeply over a year but his parents drove us apart and pressured him into breaking it off ,i wasent good enough.....)
2Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.(some people try very hard try and notice the small things they do like stay up with you at night,or always wake you from your nightmares and talk you back to sleep)
3A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.(then you usually fall in love)
4The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. (happened to me ,the one ,my one,i wa forced to let go)
5Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.(good luck i cant do it tho i try i always have a fake glossed over smile)
6Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful. (yea well all i have meet is wrong ones and the right one had the wrong parents)
7Just because no one has been fortunate enough to realize what a gold mine you are, doesn't mean you shine any less. (sometimes they jus gotta dig a lil deeper)
8Just because no one has come along to share your life, doesn't mean that day isn't coming.(dear god let this one be true)
9Just because no one has shown up who can love you on your level, doesn't mean you have to sink to theirs. (dont! i have been on my knees for years,get up out of the dirt)
things you learn.......
1I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.
2I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.
3I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to others- they are more screwed up that you think and know.
4I’ve learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you’re finished.
5I’ve learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of love,friendship or money to take it’s place.
6I’ve learned that 99% of the time when something isn’t working in your house, one of your kids did it.
7I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you to soon and all the less important ones just never go away.
i had one relationship ,everyone knew we would marry ,people were envious of how much we loved each other.we were the "perfect couple". his family destroyed it and in the end it ruined both of our lives.alone and pregnant i married badly a person i didnt love and had a very hard life ,still haveing a hard life.my ex his parents spoiled him,he traveled ,he schooled,but he never married .he was the one,and i was his.we are not the same people we were 17 years ago ,so its too late life experiences have changed us both.
anything is possiable,if you give it a chance,its the denial ,the unwillingness to give or try that ruins it.
my life has so many many many regrets............dont live your life with regrets too because it eats your soul ,it cuts your wrists from the inside out.....
