My enemy is myself

[BeyondShy]

Come on dude. Don't end your stay on a bad note.

Sorry, it already has.

Take 5 minutes and chill for a bit. I just want to remind you that no one is really against you here.

You really could have fooled me.

 

[BeyondShy]

Over and out

I want to say goodbye to everyone in here and I hope you all have a safe and healthy new year. Be sure to spend it with the people you care about and with the ones who care about you.

There will be no thorn in my side award as I prepare to walk out the door. I have permanently retired that.

I am home right now even though I did want to do something to bring in the new year. I am not going out because I have no one to take out with me. I don’t believe that going out by yourself tonight makes sense with all the couples that are around you. It’s embarrassing when it’s midnight and you have pretend you are happy when you are only holding a Pepsi in your hands.

This is first time I am leaving here with a lot of regrets and I honestly do not know if I am coming back this time.

Goodbye @TheRealCallie. Never forget how much I respect you.
@ itsmylife
@Serenia
@kaetic
@ringwood
@TropicalStarfish
@TheSkaFish
@okidoke

 

[TheSkaFish]

Happy New Year @BeyondShy , I hope you have a good one as best you can

I wanted to say that I "loved" your post not because you are leaving, but because of your New Year's wishes, and because you included me in the shout-out

There will be no thorn in my side award as I prepare to walk out the door. I have permanently retired that.

See, this is good here. You're learning that you don't need this kind of stuff anymore. You're making progress.

This is first time I am leaving here with a lot of regrets and I honestly do not know if I am coming back this time.

It doesn't have to be like this though.
In fact I would tell you to stay til the end of the week at least, to give it some time to end on a better note.
Give you some time to think things over, and if you are going to leave, then leave on a high note that will leave both you and others with good feelings.

I can already tell you've grown a lot over the years.
I have to admit, the first few years or so that you were here, I was a little off-put, I guess.
We got off on the wrong foot.
But, in time, I saw you change, I saw you try.
I don't think you're a bad person. You're just like you say, literally "beyond shy".
Like the saying goes, once bitten twice shy.
At some point, many points even, you must have been bitten badly.
And after that, it's understandable that you'd want to defend yourself.
I've been shy too at times in my life, definitely when I was younger, though not quite to this extent.
It's a difficult thing to deal with, to have a hard time trusting, especially if you've been stung in the past.
But you've been trying like I said, and it shows, it's paid off.
I, for one, have changed my mind about you. I've warmed up to you. I think you're "all right"

Keep up the good work. I know you mean to do well, even if it may not always come out right.
I know you're trying to go forward, even if sometimes you might fall back a step or two.
You pick yourself up and are a little further along than you were last year.
Already, even with any issues on here you may have had this year, you're still doing better than you were last year or any other year you've been here.

I'm not against you at all, in any way, shape, or form.

I think you should stay at least a few more days, but if not, then til next year,

Ska

 

[TheRealCallie]

Yes, I take things personally. I take it personal when I read that passive aggressive insult that many people love to use. And do you want to know one thing? I have never seen anyone else in here called that. Not one person in here. So yes, I take things personally. I NEVER hear this when I am away from here about anyone and no one says it about myself. This insult does prevent me many times from taking chances to know people in here and please, please don’t say it isn’t an insult. You or anyone can explain it away but I personally consider it an insult.

A quick search of the "passive aggressive" on this forum reveals 10 pages of results. So it has been said here and fairly frequently. You are here for two weeks of the year. You certainly can't read everything, so let's just agree that you may not see everything. You have once again jumped to conclusions and people see that.

No one is attacking you here, regardless of what you might think. We are trying to explain to you why you might be having trouble connecting to more people here. We are trying to help you. When multiple people are telling you the same thing, it's time to look around and see things from a different perspective, because your perspective might be clouded by your biases.

I hope you stick around until at least your original departure date and I hope you return next year. You are definitely not seeing things clearly right now, because no one is out to get you. Leave the past in the past. Those couple people who were actually mean to you aren't here anymore. The people you are accusing of being mean to you this year do not deserve it. They are good people and whether you want to believe it or not, they are trying to help you. You are annoyed and likely irritated with the lot of us this year and we are likely all thorns in your side, but just stop and try to see it from another perspective.

 

[TropicalStarfish]

Take care @BeyondShy ; hopefully you read this before you leave.

 

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The very first sentence in my post reads "comes across as". This is not taking sides, but literally a third party (me) sharing exactly how you come across.
It says more about Your inner world to instantly assume I have been taking sides with other people, when I literally haven't even read more than half the posts in this thread (not to mention I'm perfectly able to form my own opinions). You are in eternal self-defense mode, it seems. I thought you might benefit from knowing how this looks on the outside, but I suppose not.