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I'm just way too shy of a person. I just can't be around people and feel comfortable. Basic conversational things like keeping eye contact, not standing in an akward postion, and how quiet I speak don't come to me easily. I actually have to heavily think about it, and force myself to do those things while talking with anyone. It's gotten to the point where I can hardly meet anyone new, let alone make friends or find a boyfriend. I have a hard time admitting my feelings and I'm forced to bottle them up inside me, and it hurts. I avoid practically any sort of social activity because I get so nervous around people that I appear to just be extremely weird or selfcentered. I've only ever had one boyfriend, we were together for 3 years and I moved in with him and his mother. I loved him more than anything, but I was always afraid of his friends. I couldn't go out and have fun with him, I was always just completely antisocial and not fun when we'd go out. But when we'd stay in I would never leave him alone, would always be in his personal space and be far too clingy. Eventually he couldn't deal with me anymore and broke up with me. After the break up, we couldn't stand living in the same house. We would always fight or argue and we'd try to basically kill eachother. His mother eventually had to kick me out of the house, despite my parents abandoning me a few years ago. She told me things like 'I've had enough of your ********' and 'You're movin' with your auntie and uncle in Bel-Air'. So I whistled for a cab and when it came near The license plate said fresh and it had dice in the mirror. If anything I could say that this cab was rare, but I thought, "Nah, forget it. Yo, holmes to Bel-Air!" I pulled up to the house about 7 or 8 and I yelled to the cabbie, "Yo homes smell ya later!" Looked at my kingdom I was finally there, to sit on my throne as the prince of Bel-Air.
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