scott69
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Hello all,
I'm new and feel so hopeless and isolated, I live in a small southern town I'm gay and have no friends and no social life whatsoever......
I work out of my home and rarely leave, I only go out for things of necessity like grocery shopping, post office, doctors appts. etc. I have very low self esteem and I suffer with terrible anxiety and depression. I've had an addiction with Xanax
booze and I'm a pot smoker....
People completely overlook me when I'm out in public or either treat me like **** and I don't understand why... I'm clean cut and preppy looking very well mannered and polite. I treat everyone with kindness and respect....
I would love to meet a friend(s) here at this site, loneliness has become so common for me I have grown to accept it and even make excuses for it....
In the past when I did manage to make a friend it never lasted for very long, I always wound up being used, lied to, stabbed in the back or laughed at behind my back because I trusted the person and confided in them.....
I have a stained relationship with my parents, (they are the only family I have)
I've lost interest in things I used to have a passion for like antique collecting, interior decorating, estate sales, flea markets, garage sales, strolling through old historical cemeteries, old architecture, gardening, travel, going to the movies, museums, art galleries.....
I used to live for these activities, now I only exist, I just tuned 40 and feel like life has really passed me by and pissed all over me....
Well anyway this is me in a nutshell, I look forward to being a member here.
I'm new and feel so hopeless and isolated, I live in a small southern town I'm gay and have no friends and no social life whatsoever......
I work out of my home and rarely leave, I only go out for things of necessity like grocery shopping, post office, doctors appts. etc. I have very low self esteem and I suffer with terrible anxiety and depression. I've had an addiction with Xanax
booze and I'm a pot smoker....
People completely overlook me when I'm out in public or either treat me like **** and I don't understand why... I'm clean cut and preppy looking very well mannered and polite. I treat everyone with kindness and respect....
I would love to meet a friend(s) here at this site, loneliness has become so common for me I have grown to accept it and even make excuses for it....
In the past when I did manage to make a friend it never lasted for very long, I always wound up being used, lied to, stabbed in the back or laughed at behind my back because I trusted the person and confided in them.....
I have a stained relationship with my parents, (they are the only family I have)
I've lost interest in things I used to have a passion for like antique collecting, interior decorating, estate sales, flea markets, garage sales, strolling through old historical cemeteries, old architecture, gardening, travel, going to the movies, museums, art galleries.....
I used to live for these activities, now I only exist, I just tuned 40 and feel like life has really passed me by and pissed all over me....
Well anyway this is me in a nutshell, I look forward to being a member here.
