Not sure what to do

[Hello12345]

Well here goes nothing......I have never been in a relationship, held hands, or even kissed and I'm 24 years old. Never had a job either. Every website forces you to apply online now and I'm automatically filtered out by some computer software because I have no work experience. I've lived in many remote places over the course of my life and I've even lived in a town with a population of about 1,000 people. I've been living in a ****** backwards town for 9 years now and I can't seem to find anyone I can relate to.
I went into homeschooling in the 10th grade because I have ADHD and I wouldn't have passed high school if I didn't go. For those of you that don't know when someone has ADHD their brain can't control the level of attention they give to someone or something. Think of it like this: Every object and every person is a television set. If I'm doing a group project with someone and someone else across the room starts speaking all of my attention just shifted to the person across the room. My brain cannot control the level of attention I give to a particular person or subject and it's frustrating as hell.
I've been going to college for a few years now and it's obvious nobody wants anything to do with me. Nobody wants to talk face to face anymore, they all want to just text. Hell people don't even want to call anyone anymore. I don't know why I have a phone. I really don't know how I ended up like this. I don't do any drugs, or drink or do anything illegal. I don't consider myself to be unattractive; I'm 6'2, in decent shape, I'm clean and I dress well. I became so desperate that I started listening to literally hundreds of hours of PUA ********. I couldn't bring myself to use any of it because all it teaches you is how to manipulate other people into sleeping with you and I don't want that. All I've ever wanted was to be with someone that cares about me and loves me for who I am. But it seems like all anyone is interested in nowadays is the size of your bank account. No one today cares about your potential, they only care if you're rich or if you can entertain them. And girls are only interested in you if other girls are into you.
I don't think I deserve to live like this. At this point I have such low energy and drive that I am completely unable to find work, friends, a relationship and a life. I know you're supposed to distract yourself with hobbies but I have lost interest in my hobbies and my energy level is so low that sometimes I struggle to get out of bed in the morning. I tried seeing a psychiatrist but they quickly dismissed me and told me nothing was wrong with me. I feel as if society for whatever reason has completely rejected me and I'm forced to live my life in complete solitude until the day I die.

 

[Regumika]

First off, I'm not going to be a downer.. but when I hear "I just want to be liked for who I am." I immediately think to myself.. "Not if you have something people don't like." I'll give an example.. No one is going to like someone unreliable, no matter how -themselves- they are. You won't like someone unreliable if that's who they are.

Now, I'm not saying you're unreliable, but people can see the effort you make in improving yourself. If you really try, people will see. If you are genuinely confident, people can tell. I'm not saying it's easy. Sometimes life gives you a bad hand. So just keep trying, sometimes it just takes time.

 

[Locke]

As far as seeking work goes - things are tough all over. There are quite a few people out of work lately. Keep trying, but don't let it effect your self esteem. If programs are filtering you out, the best you can do is call potential employers or find other ways to put the human element back into the system. Volunteer work is something you might also consider. It can look good on a resume or application, and you might meet people. There are no guarntees that you'll find anything anytime soon.

I agree with Regumika on the rest. it's always good to look at how you can improve yourself and what you can do to attract people. I don't know you though, so it's hard to say what that might be.

If you find yourself surrounded by "friends" who only want to talk through text, then it's time to branch out a little, because not everyone is like that even if it feels that way. Is there anything that you enjoy doing that involves other people? Any meet ups or orginazations that you can join?

A lot of us only want to be loved for who we are. It looks like such a simple request in print, but it can take a lot of work and patience to find people.