MentatsGhoul
Well-known member
Most of my life, I can honestly say my loneliness and lack of friends has been my own fault. I'm not beating myself up or anything, but it's the truth. I isolated myself, was a bit of a dick to people, I've always felt a few years behind in terms of social development compared to other people my age. I can completely understand why people would have had a hard time talking to me, and I sure as hell made no effort to talk to them.
But past year or two, I've been doing everything I could think of to actually breaking (won't go into too much detail as to how and why, covered that in my New Member thread). And I've failed to make any progress. Met new people, moved to a new flat, partied more times in the first few months of my second year of uni than I had in... my entire life actually now that I think of it. And yet now, I'm in the EXACT same position I was last year. Exact same. No friends. I'm not even going to talk about dating, that's an impossibility at this stage.
I'm actually going through a bit of a crisis right now, dropping all the social circles I tried and failed with, because I'm just tired of constantly trying to be friendly to people who act like they need to be extra careful around me, but I honestly have no alternatives lined up (smallish town, exhausted all the resources I had in my university to meet people). I really have no idea how to break out any more.
I'm really proud of myself for actually trying, but dammit, trying so much and failing every step of the way, not really making any "baby steps" even, it's making me more depressed and worry more about what's wrong with me. Does anyone have any advice on what to do on that stage?
But past year or two, I've been doing everything I could think of to actually breaking (won't go into too much detail as to how and why, covered that in my New Member thread). And I've failed to make any progress. Met new people, moved to a new flat, partied more times in the first few months of my second year of uni than I had in... my entire life actually now that I think of it. And yet now, I'm in the EXACT same position I was last year. Exact same. No friends. I'm not even going to talk about dating, that's an impossibility at this stage.
I'm actually going through a bit of a crisis right now, dropping all the social circles I tried and failed with, because I'm just tired of constantly trying to be friendly to people who act like they need to be extra careful around me, but I honestly have no alternatives lined up (smallish town, exhausted all the resources I had in my university to meet people). I really have no idea how to break out any more.
I'm really proud of myself for actually trying, but dammit, trying so much and failing every step of the way, not really making any "baby steps" even, it's making me more depressed and worry more about what's wrong with me. Does anyone have any advice on what to do on that stage?