My relationship is like that of a teacher and a lazy, stubborn student.
My teacher have helped me throughout my life, I can feel he loves me. There was a time when I had tough phase, I was getting angry on him, I had to be a patient and persistent, but then he showed me some real good fortunes. So, now I feel that he loves me, but he also teaches me to be patient by giving me hard times, but these days I can't take life as it is anymore, I feel tired, lazy, stubborn.
So, these days I'm leading a life more or less against the wishes of my teacher, the Creator or the God, and may be I will be punished soon, but I'd love it if he ended my life now, I'm tired of carrying life anymore, I don't wanna continue anymore, I wish he could have been kind enough to end my journey here.