Sense of purpose...

[thelonegamer]

This is one if those long *** threads I post that you just ignore/read first sentences then move on/read it all don't reply. I should've addressed this to the diaries section since no one often replies but hope's the last to die.
There is no purpose in creating a forum meant to 'lonely people' when the people in it act in such a way that makes these 'lonely people' feel like 'lonely people'. I guess it should have been about making these people 'less lonely' or something of the kind. But I bet it's all in my head, my big head filled with expectations.
I seriously sometimes (99% to be accurate) don't understand people. I mean, you're PMing with someone, it comes a part where you 'open your heart' then you just refresh your inbox till you realise there's nothing coming. Then I'm like 'but...but...this is for 'lonely people'' or something. I hate to take this out and I'll probably regret this in the morning but I just had to say it.
That only further strenghtens my belief that either the human race is heading towards a massive moral changing subjection or I'm going nuts. No in-betweens.
To take out everything I want to take out right now would be practically impossible. Here's why: I ike to talk. I can talk about every single interesting subjects. I can create subjects. I pretty much can not keep my mouth shut. But only if someone actually WANTS to listen. Otherwise, I'm talking to myself. So, I feel like my mind moves in circles but never in a straight forward line. I start the year thinking in this certain way, by the middle I change to something else, in the end another mindset, then next year start it all over again, in a circle. Except it takes a week or so to go around a whole lap.
I need to find something to do. You guys in the US, Mongolia or wherever the **** you are, had you been where I'm at for a single week I bet you guys would appreciate more life back in your hometowns every day. I'm going to prove my theory in a few years, three or four. Then I'll come back here with the results so I can rub in your faces how right I was.
But that's not the point of this thread. The point of this is... I need to find a sense of purpose, of accomplishment. Otherwise, as Oscar Wilde once said, I'll be existing and not living. But it's hard to be yourself in a world that's trying to make you look like everyone else...
Four years. And I'll either prove my own self right or wrong

 

[TheRealCallie]

This is one if those long *** threads I post that you just ignore/read first sentences then move on/read it all don't reply.

Pretty sure people DO reply to your threads.

You guys in the US, Mongolia or wherever the **** you are, had you been where I'm at for a single week I bet you guys would appreciate more life back in your hometowns every day.

And you know what every single one of the members of this forum have been through to make such a bold claim?
Don't even begin to think you know what any of us have been through, because you don't. Don't make it out like you've had a worse life than any of the rest of us, because you can't know that you have.

 

[Rainbows]

You guys in the US, Mongolia or wherever the **** you are, had you been where I'm at for a single week I bet you guys would appreciate more life back in your hometowns every day.

And you know what every single one of the members of this forum have been through to make such a bold claim?
Don't even begin to think you know what any of us have been through, because you don't. Don't make it out like you've had a worse life than any of the rest of us, because you can't know that you have.

My life is so exciting that my mom threw a party because I left the house today.

 

[Nicolelt]

This is one if those long *** threads I post that you just ignore/read first sentences then move on/read it all don't reply. I should've addressed this to the diaries section since no one often replies but hope's the last to die.

When I look at your threads, you have 3 to 4 pages of replies, more than I get on most of mine.

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There is no purpose in creating a forum meant to 'lonely people' when the people in it act in such a way that makes these 'lonely people' feel like 'lonely people'.

To be honest, it’s the people in real life that make me feel lonely, everyone here has helped me out.

I seriously sometimes (99% to be accurate) don't understand people. I mean, you're PMing with someone, it comes a part where you 'open your heart' then you just refresh your inbox till you realise there's nothing coming. Then I'm like 'but...but...this is for 'lonely people'' or something. I hate to take this out and I'll probably regret this in the morning but I just had to say it.

Sometimes conversations just stop…..

To take out everything I want to take out right now would be practically impossible. Here's why: I ike to talk. I can talk about every single interesting subjects.

PM me about showing dogs, plants, agriculture, or trucks. Can you really talk about all of those things for long? I can give you a run for you money there.

I need to find something to do. You guys in the US, Mongolia or wherever the **** you are, had you been where I'm at for a single week I bet you guys would appreciate more life back in your hometowns every day.

I’m not working at the moment, and it’s kinda driving me crazy. I just have to create a to do list for myself so I accomplish something. And where exactly have you been that is so awful?

 

[Gravely]

You couldn't be
You couldn't be me even if you wanted to
Everything I've been through
You wouldn't know

Dude, everyone feels that way. Your journey is as unique as a snowflake, no one has ever felt the pain you have, you are so turbulent you're hardly human. We all feel that. When you started with the whole 'you people have no idea what it's like' part of your post, I wanted to lash out. I wanted to tell you about my childhood, I wanted to tell you about the years of pain love brought me, I wanted to explain my starvation sleeping in my car for nine months up until two weeks ago. You wouldn't know. But you know what? When it comes to your situation, I wouldn't know. The inclination we have to compare levels and length of pain is ****** up, every single one of us. We ALL feel pain, and while our stories and struggles are as unique as snowflakes, that pain shouldn't be measured because it is everything to us.

I'm sorry you feel pain. I'm sorry you feel lost. If I could give you a hug, brother, I would.

 

[kamya]

Sometimes people stop wanting to pm back. It sucks but whatever. They have their reasons. Or sometimes they are busy. It can take energy to write replies sometimes. Even if it's someone that you want to be talking with. I think the faster you learn to get over yourself, the easier it will be for you to make friends here.

 

[Ymir]

You guys in the US, Mongolia or wherever the **** you are, had you been where I'm at for a single week I bet you guys would appreciate more life back in your hometowns every day.

And you know what every single one of the members of this forum have been through to make such a bold claim?
Don't even begin to think you know what any of us have been through, because you don't. Don't make it out like you've had a worse life than any of the rest of us, because you can't know that you have.

My life is so exciting that my mom threw a party because I left the house today.

My parents thank me when I join them in social events or just join them downstairs to chat for a while.

 

[Locke]

I need to find something to do. You guys in the US, Mongolia or wherever the **** you are, had you been where I'm at for a single week I bet you guys would appreciate more life back in your hometowns every day.

Let me tell ya a little secret: Everyone has a **** life! If you go on telling yourself that your pain and hardship is so much worse than anyone else's, you will eventually completely believe it. You'll become hard and bitter, and perhaps believe that everyone is beneath you. Because no one has gone through what you have. Any wisdom that you've gained through your experiences will go to waste. There will be no one there to share it with.

That only further strenghtens my belief that either the human race is heading towards a massive moral changing subjection or I'm going nuts. No in-betweens.

You can't control where the human race is heading any more than you can control if someone returns a PM. All you can do is go forward with the knowledge that the world may very well be doomed, and not let it change your ideals and morals. You know what will happen if you give up and let the world change you? Nothing. You'll be where you are now, only with whatever happiness saying "I told you so!" will bring. I can tell you from experience that it won't be much.

So yes, go find a sense of purpose, but don't do it to prove people wrong, do it so you can be a happier person with a better life. If part of what you want is to find close friends who you can share your life with, keep trying! Don't let a few bad experiences dictate what you do or who you are.

As far as ignored PMs go, sometimes conversations just die out. There's not much you can do about it, but if you keep trying you might make good friends here.

 

[thelonegamer]

I know. Perhaps only 30% of this thread is completely correct. I freaked out. It's just that I never let stuff out and when I do this comes out. I can't stop feeling guilty 'cause I know I am wrong, I'm not dumb, I know you guys have your own stories to tell and how much your problems affect your lives. I have an argument about that but I'll save it for later. I just feel guilty now when you guys said this stuff. I'm sorry, it's inexcusable. I know there are people replying to my threads and ****. You have the right to be mad or whatever. I'll just limit myself to live life the way I see it and improve that in every single aspect. Sigh. Thanks

 

[Gravely]

I think we can all understand that, dude. Sometimes we've just got to say what we feel in an uncensored way, speak in the way our minds speak. It may be wrong and we may know it, but no comfort is granted if we're censoring ourselves to try to be politically correct. We feel what we feel.

I think people (myself included) got angry at first because no one likes feeling invalidated. I've certainly never lived a cushy life despite what international media says about Americans. We all just want to defend ourselves because what we've felt does matter. No man's word is prophecy on that. But this type of thing is a drawback of human interaction. People get offended, we take things the wrong way, we go down rabbit trails. That's why no one can freely speak their mind, not truly, unless their alone. But don't feel bad.

 

[Triple Bogey]

I need to find something to do. You guys in the US, Mongolia or wherever the **** you are, had you been where I'm at for a single week I bet you guys would appreciate more life back in your hometowns every day.

Let me tell ya a little secret: Everyone has a **** life! If you go on telling yourself that your pain and hardship is so much worse than anyone else's, you will eventually completely believe it. You'll become hard and bitter, and perhaps believe that everyone is beneath you. Because no one has gone through what you have. Any wisdom that you've gained through your experiences will go to waste. There will be no one there to share it with.

That only further strenghtens my belief that either the human race is heading towards a massive moral changing subjection or I'm going nuts. No in-betweens.

You can't control where the human race is heading any more than you can control if someone returns a PM. All you can do is go forward with the knowledge that the world may very well be doomed, and not let it change your ideals and morals. You know what will happen if you give up and let the world change you? Nothing. You'll be where you are now, only with whatever happiness saying "I told you so!" will bring. I can tell you from experience that it won't be much.

So yes, go find a sense of purpose, but don't do it to prove people wrong, do it so you can be a happier person with a better life. If part of what you want is to find close friends who you can share your life with, keep trying! Don't let a few bad experiences dictate what you do or who you are.

As far as ignored PMs go, sometimes conversations just die out. There's not much you can do about it, but if you keep trying you might make good friends here.

I have had somebody in the last couple of months bombard me with interest and attention (here and facebook) only for it to die a death really quickly. It happens. I always expect it to. It's nice while it lasts. I suppose they are bombarding someone else now. When it gets to a point were it's you always sending the first message then it's the beginning of the end.