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[isthatso]

A precious life was lost last year.
The life of my wife.
Her death and her life have thrown my mind into profound chaos.
I've seen photos of her as a child. She was an only child and a lonely child. She suffered trauma. It made her cynical about life.
But I was privileged to spend 32 years with this beautiful soul. A wounded bird with a feisty game face.
I disappointed her by not being the father figure she needed. Not all the time but a lot of the time. Maybe I regained some respect towards the end. I will never know.
When you lose a loved one, it's a huge shock. Life is fragile after all. You realise you were living in a delusion, thinking both of you were immortal.
We aren't. We will die. Sooner or later. Question how you spend every minute of your day. Time is running out.

 

[user 150037]

You are good with words. As they say it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

 

[Minus]

I am so sorry for your loss. After so many years that has to leave
a major void. I hope with time it becomes easier to get through the day.

 

[0mgofhappiness]

You are good with words. As they say it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

It hurts more if you have been loved. I would rather not to have felt love. You don't know what you are missing that way. Nothing to miss.

 

[okidoke]

It hurts more if you have been loved. I would rather not to have felt love. You don't know what you are missing that way. Nothing to miss.

Yes it does, but life is all about knowing ourselves which encompasses all emotions. If you’ve had a child and they die before you, you would never say that you wished you’d never had the child. You have to cherish and remember the good emotions you felt.

 

[0mgofhappiness]

Yes it does, but life is all about knowing ourselves which encompasses all emotions. If you’ve had a child and they die before you, you would never say that you wished you’d never had the child. You have to cherish and remember the good emotions you felt.

I thought you were referring to romantic relationships. They are two different loves, a man can fall out of love with you at the drop of a sexy blondes hat. Motherly and fatherly love doesn't end. (Or atleast it shouldn't)

 

[okidoke]

I thought you were referring to romantic relationships. They are two different loves, a man can fall out of love with you at the drop of a sexy blondes hat. Motherly and fatherly love doesn't end. (Or atleast it shouldn't)

Well, I still wouldn’t want to not have had the prior wonderful romantic moments even though they’ve turned to *****.