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SophiaGrace
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I was traveling and I sat down next to a girl and...after seeing her use burt bees lip balm, I typed out on my sidekick "I use Burt Bees; I think it's better than chapstick." and from there, opened out a very general conversation telling her where I was from and where I was going, what my interests were...ect...
The whole time though, I felt anxious, I wouldn't even look the girl in the eye. I just kept passing my sidekick over to her.
I get like this when I am depressed. I don't even want to look people in the eyes. It becomes painful. Sleep deprivation exacerbates this underlying tendancy of mine to feel down.
I remember a time when I was at college and some girl invited me to go see some blossuming trees in the summer time. I said yes to her invite and the whole time we were walking around loking at the trees, I didn't want to look her in the eyes because I felt depressed. I don't know why I get like this when my mood is all out of whack.
Anyways, back to the girl I met today, I guess it was a success to get a facebook friend at least, though I am still stuck on how to make it go further than that and actually make a friend that I ENJOY furthermore. Because I have made friends which I havent enjoyed.
I did succeed, at the end of the conversation, in making a facebook friend with her, although I do get the feeling we will never talk again. Maybe we just didnt click right.
Then, I was tested again on the next ride I went on. I turned around and there was this guy behind me and I looked at him, and something subconscious must've been triggered in my brain because I thought I recognized him. Then, I turned around and looked in front of me and there was this guy sitting in front of me...and then it hit me. I was looking at two hosts from a reality show.
I took out my sidekick and asked the guy sitting down if he was from the show, and he answered in the affirmative...and then I asked him where he was headed to and he said "home." and then I told him that I was going to visit someone...and I think he said "cool."
I think my hands were shaking at this point and I must've made a fool of myself. My anxiety level was very high.
I really do wish to learn to make friends offline. I think it's my next goal.
The whole time though, I felt anxious, I wouldn't even look the girl in the eye. I just kept passing my sidekick over to her.
I get like this when I am depressed. I don't even want to look people in the eyes. It becomes painful. Sleep deprivation exacerbates this underlying tendancy of mine to feel down.
I remember a time when I was at college and some girl invited me to go see some blossuming trees in the summer time. I said yes to her invite and the whole time we were walking around loking at the trees, I didn't want to look her in the eyes because I felt depressed. I don't know why I get like this when my mood is all out of whack.
Anyways, back to the girl I met today, I guess it was a success to get a facebook friend at least, though I am still stuck on how to make it go further than that and actually make a friend that I ENJOY furthermore. Because I have made friends which I havent enjoyed.
I did succeed, at the end of the conversation, in making a facebook friend with her, although I do get the feeling we will never talk again. Maybe we just didnt click right.
Then, I was tested again on the next ride I went on. I turned around and there was this guy behind me and I looked at him, and something subconscious must've been triggered in my brain because I thought I recognized him. Then, I turned around and looked in front of me and there was this guy sitting in front of me...and then it hit me. I was looking at two hosts from a reality show.
I took out my sidekick and asked the guy sitting down if he was from the show, and he answered in the affirmative...and then I asked him where he was headed to and he said "home." and then I told him that I was going to visit someone...and I think he said "cool."
I think my hands were shaking at this point and I must've made a fool of myself. My anxiety level was very high.
I really do wish to learn to make friends offline. I think it's my next goal.
