Some of the worst things about feeling so damned alone....

[Lost Drifter]

Being unable to get sick, put chores aside or falter in duties because there is no one else around to help you out or take away your pressures. I can’t afford to get sick or have a down day because if that happens then I don’t go to work and if I don’t go to work the rent doesn’t get paid. Likewise I can’t have hospital treatment (I’d have to stay the full course = too much time off work) and I often fear some bad emergency happening because I can’t depend on anyone else to help me out.

Sometimes I just want to kick back and let my guard down, someday I hope I could do just that and know things won’t fall to pieces when I’m not looking.

 

[mathersfrench]

Being in high school and drinking vodka in your room by yourself and crying. And knowing your a peice of ****. But too ***** to end it. even when you have the gun a bullets .