Starting to become addicted to anger

[Blue_Eyed_Symphony]

All of my life I have been depressed. ****** up. Alone. Suicidal. It hurt so badly. I attempted suicide at a young age and think of it a lot. Lately, however, I've just been excessively angry and instead of getting depressed about **** I get so mad and full dosage of this raging demon that has been living in my hole. The thing is I love it. It sure as hell beats laying around just staring. It makes me feel more alive. Eh.

 

[perfanoff]

You're just trading one type of broken with another type of broken.

 

[LoneKiller]

This might help.

http://compassionpower.com/AngerJunkieTest.php

 

[Scotsman]

That's the adrenaline of emotion you're feeling. Anger is ok, it's normal, but it's not an emotion you want as your default. It'll catch up with you.

 

[Okiedokes]

Consistent anger will destroy you. It can affect you physically as well as mentally, just like depression can. You should try to replace that emotion with another that is more positive. Easier said than done, but with some practice you will start to "feel" in a better way.

 

[Poguesy]

You can either deal with your personal relation or wallow around in anger until it eats you alive.

 

[Among the Sleep]

I used to be like that. I would get really mad about ****** everything. It's really weird...even just with small stuff like someone cutting me off in traffic, or someone not answering a phone call or something, my response would be 250% of what would actually be appropriate.

Some people just walk around pissed off. If you're already at a 6 when you start the day, all it takes is something small to turn you up to 9 and make you act crazy. All I'd say is that you're never really mad about the **** that you're mad about. If you're consistently getting angry about nothing it stems from something much deeper. The addiction part is weird though. Maybe it's cause anger is safer than sadness...it's like you're just looking for somewhere to put all your negative energy, but if the root problem doesn't get addressed all you end up doing is burning yourself out.

 

[Greb]

Seems like a post best aimed at the Miscellaneous Issues section.

Either way, anger is a pretty piss poor emotion, in my opinion. Most likely to hurt others, who aren't at fault or otherwise responsible for any of the **** you feel. It's better to feel sorrow so you just harm yourself and potentially anyone who actually care about you nearby (which is negligible) but then again, each to their own. I get angry pretty quickly at small things, and can begin to hate someone for the most retarded things, but I back this up with pretty good restrain, superhuman attention span, infinite patience and crippling honesty. Well, maybe.

Hot-headed. It's probably fufilling an emotional bridge you've never crossed, or at least laying a foundation for something you are missing when you get angry though, which is why you like it. Maybe.

That or you're potentially mentally challenged/young and think being angry makes you like the hulk (and thus awesome) or something. I wouldn't know.


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