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Frito Bandito
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I was forced to spend the day with the ex today, for reasons beyond my control. We share a common child. A few years ago, I figured out what she is and when I did she left. She is a sociopath. Once I truly saw her for who she was, I was then able to pull her claws out of my soul and expose her for a parasite. She left posthaste.
Her misery, her pettiness, her sickness were all in such stark clarity today.
I watched her (feebly) attempt to sink her claws back in. Almost as if she was attempting to bite, as a rattlesnake would its victim, and pump in a three year dose of venom to make up for lost time.
Beyond this being unnerving, sad, and more than a little creepy - it was a bit of a watershed moment for me. I'll take what I can get, at my age epiphanies are fewer and farther between. For the first time in a long time, her efforts were ineffectual. And even more important was my capability to deflect them with ease and proficiency - or mastery.
Conversely, I was reminded of her humanity. She is a person. But she is a person full of venom. In much the same way that she destroys (and has destroyed) everything that she touched, I can see the destructive affects of her own venom working from the inside out now. She is falling prey to her own nature. Considering what she put me through (us through) this fact should bring me some satisfaction. I'm not sure that it does. I've always been a compassionate person despite my own concerted efforts not to be, lol.
It will be her undoing. And it won't make me happy. It will make me sad. Because she will be another lost cause/soul. I've known many.
I think what goes around comes around.
Her misery, her pettiness, her sickness were all in such stark clarity today.
I watched her (feebly) attempt to sink her claws back in. Almost as if she was attempting to bite, as a rattlesnake would its victim, and pump in a three year dose of venom to make up for lost time.
Beyond this being unnerving, sad, and more than a little creepy - it was a bit of a watershed moment for me. I'll take what I can get, at my age epiphanies are fewer and farther between. For the first time in a long time, her efforts were ineffectual. And even more important was my capability to deflect them with ease and proficiency - or mastery.
Conversely, I was reminded of her humanity. She is a person. But she is a person full of venom. In much the same way that she destroys (and has destroyed) everything that she touched, I can see the destructive affects of her own venom working from the inside out now. She is falling prey to her own nature. Considering what she put me through (us through) this fact should bring me some satisfaction. I'm not sure that it does. I've always been a compassionate person despite my own concerted efforts not to be, lol.
It will be her undoing. And it won't make me happy. It will make me sad. Because she will be another lost cause/soul. I've known many.
I think what goes around comes around.
