the first last poem

[sallekhana]

4 years cody.
4 years.
4.

that beautiful song made me cry
alone in my room praying the stars
will collide and fall down to wrap
around me like sheets.

4 years cody.
4 years.
4.

they say i'm crazy, say its impossible,
but all they know is that number,
they don't know me.

4 years cody.
4 years.
4.

those marks on the wall aren't mine,
who put them there?
those marks on the wall aren't mine,
who put them there?

i say i'll take a train before i walk.
why was i chosen to fill this empty life?
its the fact of skipping out early.
somebody tell me why i was chosen.

rub your eyes, this can't be happening.
yes...it is.