More or less, people who know me IRL say I underestimate myself and to regimented - especially with the parameters that I set to keep an extremely low profile and out of trouble. (One of the reasons that I have trouble initiating & finding a relationship.)
My boss told me yesterday that I am to hard on myself and need to live a little. And, I said, to him once I am eligible to retire (from my employer next year after reaching the 25 year mark with the same employer), I will let lose a little. Consequences won't matter as much after eligiblity. My long range plan from 30 years decided to do this. Pay the price now and have fun later.