Walk in the woods

shadetree · Nov 30, 2014

Im going to walk my dogs now. I havent been able to walk them in a few weeks becuase its been raining the whole time. Now its sunny outside and hopefully well have a good go of it. Im so out of shape now from sitting in this chair so much. I dont really go outside anymore even though i really enjoy the sun and just watching the trees in the wind even the birdsong. All of it puts me at peace.

Down in that field i can let the dogs off their leashes. We live in the country so i dont have worry about them bothering anybody or anything and they run and have a great time of it. Ive been alone so long that i talk to trees and stuff while im down there and my dogs and myself lol and im sure if somebody walked up on me theyd think i was totally psychotic. You know people joke about that stuff but i think its a lot different if you really happen upon it. Not that anybody would be down there i never see anybody down there, which is the main reason i go.

Its funny as much as i crave friends and desperately need people in my life now i still enjoy my solitude very much. Ive been alone so long now that i dont even know that i would really know how to have a friend or be around people anymore. Im 39, im on disability and stuck at home, no real money to do anything but video games and movies. We try to go out occasionally but theres nowhere here to go except bars and i dont really want to become a career drunk lol. Last time we went i ended up dancing with a potted plant and when the bouncer told me to stop i gave him a 45 minute disertation on how it was wrong for him to come between me and my true love.

Its so hard to make friends as you get older, even without the difficulties i have on my own. Its like society wants to keep us seperate and miserable. I cant seem to connect with most people anymore, and the longer im alone the more i lose touch with whats going on in the world, because why would you keep up with something youre not really a part of?

I love people even though i dont understand them and they piss me off and aggrivate the crap out of me most of the time with their closemindedness and predictability. I swear its like everybodys a clone of bad actors in a bunch of B movies. Im not judging anybody im just being honest, thats all i seem to run into. Course i say that but the only people i talk to are on the net now adays and i guess that makes sense because everybody on the nets playing a role right?

Just some random thoughts i guess, im gonna go take my walk now and hopefully it helps some. Im actually in a pretty good mood the last few days which im thankful to god for. I hope its the meds working and they help me stay stable and i dont slip back into depression. I dont really feel numb but i just dont seem to care anymore. I think its kinda like those people on deathrow where they realize its coming so why fight it and worry about it? Im sure they have a name for that kind of horrible peace.

Thats what i feel right now. 20 years of this and even longer in the big scheme of things thats a long time to plod your way through something when youre neck deep in mud.

Like i said though doesnt matter. Im going on my walk now

Mr Seal The Albatros · Nov 30, 2014

Oh I understand what you mean. I get jealous when I see groups of people, but I enjoy and need my time alone every once in a while.
Throw me a PM sometime if you feel like talking sometime. I'm not as much of a gamer, but I still have a few PC games.

On a side note, your dogs are adorable! What are their names?

shadetree · Nov 30, 2014

Mr Seal The Albatros said:
Oh I understand what you mean. I get jealous when I see groups of people, but I enjoy and need my time alone every once in a while.
Throw me a PM sometime if you feel like talking sometime. I'm not as much of a gamer, but I still have a few PC games.

On a side note, your dogs are adorable! What are their names?

Cool yeah ill probably drop you a line sometime. And thank you, the dogs are brother and sister, theyre named bliss and happy, happys the short haired one.Thats actually a bad picture of him but its hard to get pics because hes so hyper lol. He looks like a boxer that somebody shot with a shrink ray theyre part boxer part chihuahua.

Arachne · Dec 1, 2014

I talk to trees all the time. In fact I talk to pretty much talk to anything. I know people think me an escaped metal patient the best of times. Being Wiccan it is part of who I am now. I revere nature, support peace, and believe society cannot be at peace if we are out of harmony with nature or are mistreating Mother Earth (also known as Gaia, the name of a pagan goddess given to Earth).

I walk amongst the forest often we are blessed where I live with an abundance of nature trails. I often touch trees to feel their life force. We can learn much from nature, its harmony and its life. It is in those trails I get the solitude I to crave. I do not have many friends not by choice more so because they do not understand me. I believe now that it is their own loss, not mine yes, it took me a long time to realize it.

Just be yourself open yourself to your possibilities and in time those that are destined to cross your path will. You are a good person and are deserving.

Your dogs are adorable and your place of walking even more so. I wish you positive energies and bright blessings.. ^.^

Tealeaf · Dec 1, 2014

Dogs might lick their butt and pass the joy on to you, but at least they don't gossip and they try.

shadetree · Dec 1, 2014

Arachne said:
I talk to trees all the time. In fact I talk to pretty much talk to anything. I know people think me an escaped metal patient the best of times. Being Wiccan it is part of who I am now. I revere nature, support peace, and believe society cannot be at peace if we are out of harmony with nature or are mistreating Mother Earth (also known as Gaia, the name of a pagan goddess given to Earth).

I walk amongst the forest often we are blessed where I live with an abundance of nature trails. I often touch trees to feel their life force. We can learn much from nature, its harmony and its life. It is in those trails I get the solitude I to crave. I do not have many friends not by choice more so because they do not understand me. I believe now that it is their own loss, not mine yes, it took me a long time to realize it.

Just be yourself open yourself to your possibilities and in time those that are destined to cross your path will. You are a good person and are deserving.

Your dogs are adorable and your place of walking even more so. I wish you positive energies and bright blessings.. ^.^

Thanks for that very nice reply i appreciate it. I kinda believe that too about people being out of touch with nature and out of synch. I know what you mean too about people not understanding you. I feel so different than most people its like im from a totally different world. Im a christian myself but i believe in respecting other peoples beliefs and mainly try to live in peace with everybody and the world. I love people and life very much, i just dont understand my place in it very well sometimes and will be glad when this part of the journeys over and i can pass on to the next stage of existence.

Ive got a lot of native american roots too so maybe some of my understanding and connection to nature comes from that, im part catawba and part cherokee.

Im sort of rambling here but if you ever feel like talking message me, you seem like a really cool person.