CenotaphGirl
Under the dirt, that’s my home ⚰️
So its an interesting time in my life where wedding bells sound closer than ever, however…. I am not rushing into that…
Amazingly …. My cousin is rushing into it and marrying the man of her dreams, I offered to buy her dress as my contribution so we will sip champagne and try countless dresses on together
I feel like since I was a little girl I never knew a wedding could be in my future. Thats not who I was raised to be at all… often leaves me questioning why was my worth always seen as so low ever since I was born. When I turned maybe 16 my mum used to say, no one will marry you but you have gifts… she would also say when I was dancing no mans eyes would leave me. I guess that became my value so quickly, how many eyes were on me… how many men would rather look at me than their “wives”… I felt such distain for them as I thought I could never be one….the word still leaves this kind of bitter taste in my mouth.
Here I am now finally making baby steps towards a group I resented for so long… here I am on my path to being one of them “wives”…
I’m just venting but im awfully emotional today…
