Well you're not alone. People that still have souls expect things to happen during high school, during their teen years and 20s. Stuff like having some good friends, having some good times, losing your virginity, falling in love. Having episodes in ones life. The system only expects us to pay attention and devote all of our time and efforts to our slavery as cogs in the machine. More and more those kind of things are slipping away from all of us. Back when I went to grade school there were 3 Recesses in a day: morning, noon, and afternoon. Now, from what I've heard, a lot of schools don't even have one. In the adult world, its all about money. If you can get through endless years of schools, dont mind paying some 30 grand for college, and then manage to beat the desperation of our ever increasing unemployment and diminishing jobs then you can finally blow all that money on friends, dates, etc and gain the respect that goes with whatever fancy title you have. If you have the money theres no shortage of friends, lovers, or good times, and if you don't no one will respect you anyway. If you study the Illuminati, new world order, take the red pill, see how deep the rabbit hole really goes, at least you'll know that this whole thing is a lot bigger then you or I. I came to that realization even while trying to write my own damn rant.
The days just continue to be the same. Oh you might have some adventures from time to time, but it will always come back to the same lonely conclusions, unless you are serious and able to build the life you want. Many of us don't know what that life is, especially when we're young and want to have more life experiences first. We don't know the technicalities of what is available, or if we will like it when we get there, and it sucks to have to pay some ridiculous amount of money only to try something and realize you don't like it. That fear of being limiting yourself can only hold you back and result in some hardcore indecision. This probably won't cheer you up Fighter4life, but I just wanted you to know that a lot of us are in that boat. I can't count the number of times things haven't worked out. I find it helps to focus on the big picture, fight for stuff I believe in. Just remember though, we are all under attack. Our very way of life is under attack. I'd rather go down fighting them. Find your cause, stand your ground, and die like a man.
If you kill yourself.....they win. Then what? Reincarnate and go through the same **** all over again? Mark 10:29-12:57 eternal paradise is a lie!
I'm 31. Want to know how many women I've been with? 3. Their names are Denise, Mary, and Maria. I can honestly say nothing good came from any of it. In Retrospect I'd of rather been the 30 year old virgin. If you're on the bottom play the saint, if you're on top play the sinner. Might as well get credit for suffering. Thats pretty much how it goes in this world. Life can be very unfair, thanks to karma half of its our fault. Human nature is all back and forth.
