When you take it for granted

[Felix]

I used to believe I would always have friends, but since highschool I've slowly lost many. With some of them it was like we just got apart, others betrayed my trust... and I had to end the friendship.

Now I'm in a weird moment in my life when I realize all my semi-close friends are women. I don't feel it's the same as the friendships I had before. Probably becose those were dudes and they were my best friends. I really miss having someone who I can talk to for hours who will understand. I don't think I appreciated that enough when I had it. I was just so numb those days...

Now I'm 25 and I feel I start to wake up and notice I have to do something about it. But I still carry with me some kind of insecurity which keeps me from actually doing things.

I lost all my friends from school and my best friend from highschool, now I have my friends from college and I'm afraid of losing them... I don't think it's gonna happen but it could... But most important is, I'm not that happy with them anymore. I need new friends but I don't know how to make them really. All my friends were from the places I studied... that is kind of silly isn't it? except a few from primary school...

Another thing I took for granted: girls. I always tought it would somehow happen... a girl would come to me, "life" would gather us... so ******* childish I know... That never happened. So I have sex hoes since I'm too shy to try to pick up women. My first kiss to a girl was with a prostitute...

How come they don't teach you this in school...

 

[IgnoredOne]

One of the biggest mistakes of any boy, I find, is thinking that life necessarily owes you sex/girl/etc. Life doesn't owe us anything, not even continued life - but the good news is that you can always find a way to thrive.

Nothing about your present funk has to be permanant, though I very much caution against any more indulging in prostitution. Its often an ugly and horrid industry, but just insofar as yourself, you're not really developing yourself - its just another form of illusionary escapism, imo.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

I dont hang with any people I had in HS.
I had a best friend..from childhood but he betray my trust several times...
**** to tell you the truth most of my so call friends I had..which t thought was my best friend were thr ones that screwed me over the most...

Its one of the reason why I tend to become close to female...Mainly becuase my so call best freinds wanna **** all my GF or wife.

I had one close friend while I was attending college...a female of course.

I was in the miloitary for 4 years. I dont keep in contact with those people anymore.

Most of my friends on FB are HS friends I know....I dont hang with them.

Ive met many new friends throughtout my years. Some Ive gotten close too again..but everyone is involved in tier own lives ..married etc..etc

I dont hang out with co workers.

I can meet or make new friends or GFs...

I met Kala a couple of weeks ago. Female of course. Shes only 19 but to me its just a matter of being a freind.
Were just people.
Kala is some what like me. shes easy going and has a great sense of humor.
She probably 6'5 Idk..but shes very very tall and very pretty. She sticks out like a door knob either way.

I met Carl not too long ago...Hes very nice..but has a lot of issues. He got too clickie...becuase I was the only friend he had @ that time..

No I dont have close..close friends from childhood like movies or TV...

The thing of it is...most of my HS friends on FB..dont hang out with each other either....

So...Im pretty normal.

and so are you.

Some of the **** you read about if you dont have lots of freinds or very close friend...there's something wrong with you...
is totally faults...

All you have to do is get out and drive around town. Be awear or notice certain things.
Most people just go to work and come home on a daily basis. Notice the same amount of cars in drive ways everyday or night.
Every once in a while people might have a get together or party at their house...but thats far and few in between.

Notice your parents...did they have **** loads of people coming over to party with themn everynight?
Notice you're friends parents...did they have people visiting or did they go out and hang all the time?

Think about this for a minute....
Where the **** are all these experts getting informations from to say that if you dont have close friends all the time..theres something
wrong with you?

Maybe you're still have teenage, HS or younger adults perceptions. The so call being socialable, partying, know everyone
and popular with everyone.

My daughter has lots...lots and lots of fans. She parties lots and is the light of the party everywhere she gose.
But on a personal level...she's not close, close to anyone. And she's also going through stages of letting people
out of her life and meeting new friends. There's posibly no way for anyone to keep track or get too close to
that many people.

 

[Limlim]

wait, a prostitute let you KISS her? I thought they didnt go for that.

 

[Felix]

@Ignoredone: I realize now I should have made a more concious effort to make friends and have girlfriends. It's not like I tought that life owned me this things, it's more like I tought it would happen on it's own, just like I had become friends with the kids in school. Naive, I know...

With prostitutes, I'd rather put my prive parts inside "normal" girls, but since I still feel too shy to aproach them... I have no other choice, I feel even more depressed and I become grumpy when I don't **** so it's a necesity for me.

@Lonesome crow: I'm in my mid 20s, most people I've met have friends, I just want like a few friends, I don't wanna be super popular or anything, just 2 or 3 close friends to hang out with and go to clubs, do guys stuff.

I can relate to your problems with male friends. They tend to start with other girls, that come into the group, but mostly the problem is that most people can't be loyal. Few people value good, close friendships I think... at least that has been my experience.

@Limlim: lol some girls kiss you others don't, depends on their mood sometimes

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Well...lim

Most Gfs I have/had likes to suck on my laliPop. Some of them Swallow.
Even if she dosnt swallow. Things of it is, Everyonce in a while when comes
up for air....she'll kiss me or make out with me.

If you make her feel its a dirty rotten thing to do..she's not going to do it or
enjoy it. Women get off getting me off. I get off getting women off.

It gose beyound the sex. The woman have to feel comfortible and good
about herself when she's around you. You're not better than her.
You might have some common interest but never make her feel she's less than.

When dudes gose around impressing women...it's actaully working against them.

Even in friendship....if you inteminate her, thinking you're smarter than her or superior
than her. It's not going to last. The same can be said when forming freindships in general.

 

[Felix]

Your post is slightly weird, Lonesome...

But I tried impressing girls in the past, did not work.

The thing is, I'm around girls all the time and I still feel I don't get them "sexually"...

 

[Limlim]

Don't worry about him, his posts are always weird, no one knows what he is saying half the time. Also we'll be talking about our rock collections or something and he'll talk about how many women he's ******, then post naked pictures of his SO and daughter.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Lim lives out in the middle of nowhere.
He hasnt seen ***** since he cant remember
and as he stated its like a pipe dream for him to see or touch real women in a couple of years.
All theory or fantacies for him....he basically wacks off all the time to pics of my daughter.lmao
We're talking about how we can collect or retain freindships.
He's talking about collecting rocks...cuase that's all he has to play with at the moment.lol

It's like as if Im suppost to be lonely and miserable as his is to be fucken ok so some stupid ********.


It's just my personal experince with women.
You tend to have more female friends as I do.
So you notice these things more than dudes that hardly had anytype of interactions with women.
Yeap...impressing women dosnt work.

mmmm..sexually all women are different.
I tend to chioce women that's more sexually active. They love sex.
There's plenty of books or vedios on woman's sexuality.
I found it benifitaul to educate myself.
Renae actaully made me watch serval vedio on how to really, really get her off (every woman is different)
becuase we're matural adults.
It took me a couple of weeks of experimenting with her...hands on. Putting the theory into practice.lmao
I finally figure how to hit her right and get her to have big big orgaism multiple times. All day if she wanted
to.
I also asked her if I could try certain things on her that I read from other books.
Believe or not Reane donst like certain things...such as me going down on her.lol
Even though we both know a women's clit is the one of the most sensitive part of a woman's sexual orgin.
She started liking it after a while...different ways to get her off.

My ex-wf...did the samething when we first got married.
She simply allow me to play with her body or sexual orgins.
She bascailly told me how to get her off, even though we were a bit naieve and innocent at that time.
On the other hand...my ex-wf would just sholve my face into her ***** and pull on my hair.lmao

 

[Felix]

@Lonesome crow: Well they seem to be all diferent, more than men. I've heard it all from girls who prefer chubby tall guys to girls who like shot muscular dudes. And they tend to go for that specific type.

I feel like I'd be more comfortabe with an unexperienced girl, or a one of the shy/quiet type. Girls who are too agressive sexually... at this point of my life, as much as I'd like to "hang out with them" I don't see that happening.

@Limlim: really pics of her daughter?? I doubt is his doughter, I don't think any dad would expose her like that. It's probably a prank...

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Its my daughter Felix...
All you have to do is google.
Or sign on to her FB account...
Its plain as day who she list as her father and mther.

My daughter writes everything.
She throw her heart N soul and everything else to world like an open book..

.My daughter loves me very much.
I love her more than life itself.
And Im certainly not ashame of her.

Every woman is different and my duaghter is certainly not examp from that.

and it still repsecting her. Not making her feel less than. Accepting her as she is. Loving her unconditionally
More than anything she wants me to be proud of her. Not judge her.

Maybe the different women Ive met helps me to understand my daughter...

Just a few years ago...I had judgments about a lot of things.
In so many ways she drawing out the best part of me....

In any case shes my duaghter.
It is what is it..

Renae tell me she loves me everyday.
Understanding her better as I go too.

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Whcih is kind of a theme of this thread in a way.

I dont take my daughter for granted.
I dont take her life and love for granted
I dont take the relaionship I have iwht my daughter for granted..
I dont take Renae for granted either.

Whatever love we have for each other.
Whatever life expeince is for us at this givnen moment. I dont take for granted.

The good ..the bad. The ugly. the beautiful. I breath in all of it .