withdrawing from the outside world

[Carebear2010]

That's what I did for the longest time.... Just scared of meeting people and broaden my horizons. Really, wished I wasn't so scared being 30 yrs. old and feel like I'm much younger than that. I lost my virginity to a guy over a drunken night then the frriendahip with him went downhill after that. Afterwards got into a short-term fling with a guy that I was friends with for a few years now doesnt want anything to do with me anymore.

To top it off, I can't hear well, even with the highest powered hearing aids so I feel awkward when communicating with others like I just don't fit in.

I go to this small-town bar frequently because I run into people there I've seen before. I like being around people that drink...Wierd, I know. I like being around people that joke around and have fun.

I love being around men now...Like it's some sort of drug....I don't have any close friends....I swore to myself that I won't get involved with a guy sexually now unless there's a relationship involved.

 

[SherryGee]

hey carebear

i really understand what you are going through because i am deaf as well and feeling awkward and communicating with others. being in hearing world is tricky for lots of deaf people because of the communication barriers and feeling loneliness. i guess i find it easier to go on online than talking to people in reality.

well, ways to communicate with hearing person is to write notes to each other, text or teach them to sign if you know sign language.. i find it easier to hang out with just one person at one time in quiet places otherwise i get too confused if there is lots of background noises, more than one people talking.. etc

about men, it is seem that you want to settle down now, perhaps you get know a man like a best friend and let the chemistry forming. takes awhile, hopefully you get there