Wooo Hooo our first big fight!!!!!

[Lonesome Crow]

I knew the day would come when we have our first argument.
I've risk everything to be with Renae. For better or for worst,
I lived it. I have no regrets in my decisions.

Life aint working out according to her plans...hahahahaaaa
There's alot of miss communicating N miss understanding @ the moment.
She's getting all emotional N I'm getting practical.

Some fucken emotional lugages. Her stupid as ex keeps calling
her or texting me talking a bunch of ********, threating me N
manipulating her...but I'm suppost to be so fucken understanding
to listen to her talk to the ******** tell her SOB N poor me stories
and her feeling sorry for his *** in front of me. After she told him
not to contact her anymore and she said she wouldnt talk to him anymore.
But he kept on texting me. Then she finally broke down
and talked to him again as if they're fucken best friends...but wait
a god damn minute...didn't she left him becuase he was a manipulating,
abusive ********?
And I'm looking like a fucken ******** in all of this...so excuse the ****
out of me.

So I'm way the **** out hear on the limb ( it's my decision to be with
her..so I cant blame anyone) I quit my job and broke up with Francis.
While Francis N I had challenges with the break up. Francis was trying
everything in her power to get me to stay. Of course Francis changed
her tunes when she found out about Renae. She actaully broke down
N cried...but she was being a little snot days before that...
I was with Francis every night until Renae came. But Francis N I knew the only way we would be
able to separate was to be NO CONTACT. Francis N I went through many
rough times together....had major fights and a lot of life on life terms.
One of the reason it was very difficult for Francis N I to break up
becuase we worked through them. Will Francis call me the first night
Renae got into town..but I told Francis Renae was here. So she stopped
calling..and that was that...clean uncomplicate, no dramma like adults.

It's very difficult for me becuase I wish not to talk about other women
in front of Renae. And if I had females friend she would totally flip out.
But it really pisses me off when theres a double standard.
I lived through and survived toxic relationships and Renae fall into those
traps. But if I say something about ..then she thinks I think she's
a stupid *****. Its not so much about other women I wanna to mention...
it the toxic part or what I learned not to do...
And also at the sametime...I'm aint talking to my EX...so wtf

I love Renae very very much. She's the mother of my duaghter.
It's hasn't been easy to reconcile with our duaghter.
Kimberly was happy that her parents were together again and very much
in love. Alot of the ********* were fighting about are coming from
outside forces. it's retriggering alot of old feelings I have of why
Reane and I went out separate ways to begin with.

But there's trouble in paradise. I want things to work out between us
without it getting all toxic N ****. I don't really have anyone to talk to
about this or people that would wanna listen to this ****.
So, I have leave it somewhere N get it out of my system so I can move forward
with this crap rattling in my head or linger feelings.

I'm very fustrated N up set and wish not to take it out on Renae.

I also know arguments are part of a relationship. I'm trying not
to flip out. The arguments Francis N I got into were like really bad but it's
what also drew us closer together...but Renae is not Francis

 

[kamya]

I don't have nearly as much experience as you do but I will tell you I read through this.

Just remember there was a reason things didn't work out the first time.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

I don't have nearly as much experience as you do but I will tell you I read through this.

Just remember there was a reason things didn't work out the first time.

There were plenty of reasons why it didn't work out the first or second
time....Third time would be the charm

I figured it out....It's really really simple.
Women are nucken futz!

 

[Mooosic]

Yea I don't have much experience BUT you know, sometimes when a child is involved, a couple feel that they HAVE to be together! Make sure the only reason y'all are together isn't because y'all have a child. Be together because y'all love each other! If you're daughter doesn't like the idea of y'all not being together, explain to her that these things happen and not all relationships are meant to work out!!

 

[Intranetusa]

Women are nucken futz!

Not all, but all the ones you end up with are.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Errr...no, that's not exactly the proper wordings or ture assestement
of the matter. It's more.... I choose to me with crazy women.

Never the less 99.999999999% of women R Craaaazzzzzzy.
So...until miss perfect comes alone I ma just ganna have
do the best with what I have.