cumulus.james
Well-known member
Hi ALL and happy Christmas all. I just need to rant or express myself or something.
I am of course alone for Christmas. No cards, no presents no one to talk to. I am also looking at eviction in the new year so I have a future on the streets to look forward to. I am estranged from my family and I can't have friends. I can't have friends not just because I don't know how to make them but also because I feel like I am not worth knowing.
I hardly leave the flat and all that has been on tv is stuff about people being happy at Christmas. I feel trapped in my loneliness. I don't feel like I really exist the way most people do. I wonder what it might be like to have friends. I think about all the happy families at Christmas sitting round the table. I think I will never experience that. I look out my window and see couples. I wonder what that's like.
I feel like I am shutting down or something. It is feeling like the beginning of the end.
I hurt. All day everyday. Just loneliness.
So just using this board to try and say something of how I feel really. Maybe it makes me feel just a bit better to have got some thoughts out my head.
I am of course alone for Christmas. No cards, no presents no one to talk to. I am also looking at eviction in the new year so I have a future on the streets to look forward to. I am estranged from my family and I can't have friends. I can't have friends not just because I don't know how to make them but also because I feel like I am not worth knowing.
I hardly leave the flat and all that has been on tv is stuff about people being happy at Christmas. I feel trapped in my loneliness. I don't feel like I really exist the way most people do. I wonder what it might be like to have friends. I think about all the happy families at Christmas sitting round the table. I think I will never experience that. I look out my window and see couples. I wonder what that's like.
I feel like I am shutting down or something. It is feeling like the beginning of the end.
I hurt. All day everyday. Just loneliness.
So just using this board to try and say something of how I feel really. Maybe it makes me feel just a bit better to have got some thoughts out my head.