1.] The older I get, the more I respect you. I think you're a good man and I understand your motives. I just wish you weren't a ******* drunk for most of my life. I hate that part of you, and I want to kill it. That isn't you. Can't you move past your pain so I can get closer to you before your body gives out in a few years?
2.] I hate you for what you've done to me. I know how and why you have become what you are, but I cannot get past the hatred that pours out of you. You misled me for so many years, and your reigned over me when I was too weak to fight for myself. I will stand over you on your death bed and tell you in that last moment how badly you've wronged me, and I will enjoy it. When your days end because of the stress you put yourself through, you will know the fear I have felt.
3.] You were once fickle, you once used me, and I was once your pawn. I loved you, and I forgive you. But make no mistake, you have made me this beast. Because of you, I will never love again.
4.] I remember how close we used to be, I remember when we called ourselves brothers. When we parted ways, presumably forever, I was a moron. We both were. We were kids calling ourselves men, and none of the petty ******** we fought about means nothing to me now. I miss what we once had. And by the way, I'm sorry I let her come between us. You knew the kind of pain I was in and I knew you understood, but I'm sorry I shut you out.
5.] I'm so sorry I broke your heart. I thought I loved you, you know I wanted to. I know you loved me so much, and you were the only one who did. I'm sorry I still loved her and couldn't give you what you deserved. I never felt as alive as I did with you, and I'm so sorry I destroyed your future. I still think about you.