I'm sorry that this has to be my first post but I feel I need to talk about it somehow. Also sorry it's a tad long. 
Well, it all started a few weeks ago when my boyfriend broke up with me, his reason being, in essence, that he didn't like me any more and I wasn't as amazing as he'd first thought. We carried on talking for a while but then I cut off contact with him as I found out he had cheated on me with his ex-girlfriend because I wasn't sexual enough for him. This hurt a lot as he had gotten really defensive before when I expressed worries that he might cheat on me (he had done certain things in the past). He also promised me a million times that he would never do that and would never try to force me into anything I didn't want to do, as I'm rather inexperienced. My friends were supportive but after a day or two it felt like everyone's attitude was "just get over it" and I didn't want to bother anybody by complaining about it. It was really difficult losing him as it felt like I'd finally met somebody who was like me and I considered him a best friend but he treated me so badly.
Anyway, I had my friends to fall back on and was feeling pretty happy until a couple of days ago. I had this little blog where I wrote down all my feelings that I thought were too silly to share with people. I wrote on there about a friend that I was jealous of her as she always has guys who like her. She found it and got majorly hacked off at me as she thought I was implying she 'got around' (I truly wasn't). One of her friends said some very hurtful things to me. Now I can't face them at school and I spend all my breaktimes studying in the library on my own. It's only been a little while but I feel so lonely and ostracised. It feels like they never liked me in the first place because this has happened once before and nobody stood up for me then.
I remember when one of our other friends broke up with her boyfriend. They went over to her house with chocolate and ice cream and I felt so, so sad because I knew they would never do that for me. I know I shouldn't have written about people's lives on the internet but I think the way they're treating me isn't entirely fair. I think I am by nature quite a sweet person and I would never say anything to deliberately hurt a friend. Opinions would be much appreciated ^-^
Well, it all started a few weeks ago when my boyfriend broke up with me, his reason being, in essence, that he didn't like me any more and I wasn't as amazing as he'd first thought. We carried on talking for a while but then I cut off contact with him as I found out he had cheated on me with his ex-girlfriend because I wasn't sexual enough for him. This hurt a lot as he had gotten really defensive before when I expressed worries that he might cheat on me (he had done certain things in the past). He also promised me a million times that he would never do that and would never try to force me into anything I didn't want to do, as I'm rather inexperienced. My friends were supportive but after a day or two it felt like everyone's attitude was "just get over it" and I didn't want to bother anybody by complaining about it. It was really difficult losing him as it felt like I'd finally met somebody who was like me and I considered him a best friend but he treated me so badly.
Anyway, I had my friends to fall back on and was feeling pretty happy until a couple of days ago. I had this little blog where I wrote down all my feelings that I thought were too silly to share with people. I wrote on there about a friend that I was jealous of her as she always has guys who like her. She found it and got majorly hacked off at me as she thought I was implying she 'got around' (I truly wasn't). One of her friends said some very hurtful things to me. Now I can't face them at school and I spend all my breaktimes studying in the library on my own. It's only been a little while but I feel so lonely and ostracised. It feels like they never liked me in the first place because this has happened once before and nobody stood up for me then.
I remember when one of our other friends broke up with her boyfriend. They went over to her house with chocolate and ice cream and I felt so, so sad because I knew they would never do that for me. I know I shouldn't have written about people's lives on the internet but I think the way they're treating me isn't entirely fair. I think I am by nature quite a sweet person and I would never say anything to deliberately hurt a friend. Opinions would be much appreciated ^-^
