Am i really that different?

[Crispyflakes]

I'd like to say i dont talk about my emotional experiences with anyone, not even close family, so i figured why not turn to the internet. Second this might be long because this is years of thoughts that have been bottled up spilling out. To tell u a little about myself im a vary odd fellow. Shrouded by mystery with everyone i encounter. Im often rumored to do some crazy things some true some false all of witch quite comical or psycotic (im really not a nut job). People say i look like napolion dynomite, sid the sloth, the guy from despicable me, michael ceria, and some others along that line. I dont mind but it can get a little annoning if ur teacher calls u sid or napolion. i dont really mind though. I can be a vary funny person and also a prett good actor. I once wanted to become one and people have said thay will see me in a movie like step brothers one day. Although i dont really want to become one i wouldnt apose it or be supurised if i was. In my ninth grade year my comical side turned up quite a few notches and i was pretty much known as the really funny guy, but as the year went on it dwindled back down and now in my 11th grade year is much lower. I am subconniously funny and give random onlookers a laugh sometimes. Sometimes the only reason people talk to me is to hear a good joke, but as time goes on the less funny i am. I have alot more to say.

 

[Nina]

I'd be interested in hearing some more of your story Crispy....It's hard to comment on a humorous, mystery-person...
We're gonna need a Part-II here...

 

[csmswhs]

hi, hope your doing ok

 

[Cereal]

"but as time goes on the less funny i am. I have alot more to say." I wouldn't see that as a bad thing. You can't always be the funny guy man, I think it's nice that people turn to you when they want cheering up but they need to remember you are human too - and not a resource they can use whenever they are feeling down. Your sense of humor and wit are never going to just fade away, don't worry about that.

I also think we need a Part 2 before I can comment any more.

 

[edgecrusher]

i think being different is good. be unique, be yourself. embrace who you are and you will become more comfortable with it in time.

 

[sadface]

are you different?
yes

but everyone is, don't overthink it.

 

[Crispyflakes]

Well heres part two. Although i appear a funny person in all truth im vary serious often zoning out in deep thought. The main reason i use comedy is to have some sort of a friend and no look like a "loner" but at the end of the day i have no friends. Nobody i can talk to share any kind of feelings with ( not that i really want to). I am the defention of the lone wolf. Not that i really even mind. In all truth i only truely enjoy my own company and as it seems besides my humerous side i am the only one that enjoys my company. Used to i could put a lid on the more serious side but now it seems as if its blown clean off. The past year or so things have taken a turn for the worst though. Im so disconnected from everything even myself. As i walk from place to place i become dizzyish and confused barely understanding what people say anymore. Im not sucidal but besides my lack of experience and fear of death i wouldnt care if i lived or died. In two years i plan to join the marines as i have planned to do for as far as i can remember and besides the others i hope a war starts and i am killed as a true hero so i will have died for something (i know quite horrible). Even though i dont connect with anyone (even family) i can understand and label someone just by looking at them farily accurate. I still have alot more to speak on

 

[Yukhi]

Crispyflakes!! I like your name CRRRRRRISPYFLAKES

Everyone has different views on life. But I do encourage you to prefer to stay on this earth alive. Who knows what good things may happen to you. On the other hand, some bad things may as well. But they're just trials that we have to overcome. Survival of the fittest as they always say. I wish you luck in the marines. But instead of dying and being remembered as a true hero xD wouldn't you prefer sharing your amazing experiences with us and with other people?

 

[Badjedidude]

In two years i plan to join the marines as i have planned to do for as far as i can remember and besides the others i hope a war starts and i am killed as a true hero so i will have died for something (i know quite horrible)

Marines won't allow such a mindset for long. It's destructive both to your battle buddies and to the service as a whole. I suggest that you adopt a new outlook before joining up.

 

[Crispyflakes]

its more that im willing to die not welcoming it. i dont want to die just indifferent.

 

[eris]

I don't think youre all that different, just unique. That is a lot of different people that you look like im going to imagine you look like Michael Cera because he is really cute (see that <--- I said youre cute)

i can understand and label someone just by looking at them farily accurate.

If you dont like people to judge you, how can you look at someone and label them ? Im sure if someone were to just look at me and not talk to me they would probably think I was some dumb punk. You should give people more credit.

You should realize these are highschool kids youre talking about. Give it 3 years and those same people will have a totally different opinion of you. I remember when I was 20 I ran into this girl that hated me in highschool. She went on and on about how she was wrong, and that she only hated me because I was part of the alternative crowd.

Please, try living long enough to get an accurate view of humanity. Highschool is not real life.