Hi y'all!
23
Male
Glasgow
and a Leo!
I feel I am about to add to the bundle of newbie posts added after a night of alcohol and awkwardness but here it goes.
I've always assumed that to be lonely you had to desire the company of others. I've lived most of my life on the border, never loved but never harmed, knowing everybody but close to nobody. I always thought that needing people was a weakness and to be close to others was to expose yourself at the most vulnerable.
Lately however I've felt like something is missing, well not missing more like a self imploding. Like there is so much to share but no way to express it and no one to. It feels like my whole nature works against interactions with others and in turn they fail to acknowledge me, the real me who I've been hiding behind tv inspired personas and characters I've used to deal with people since I was a child.
So yea this is my final step, the ultimate admission behind all the posturing and pretense I am lonely and have been for a long time.
So, hi how was your day?